You sir...are a poetic genius! I love this. hehe..I know you aren't a sir but a lady, but that phrase came into my head, couldn't resist..
Sounds like someone full of mood swings, the sad thing about this world is, we are a fallen world, a world born into death...
There is no hope in this world, so our first reaction to hopelessness is to constantly self destruct and die. I know because
I can be a very hopeless person sometimes, I don't want to be here a lot...
Sometimes we know we are, and sometimes we do not do this intentionally.
The only one who will love you perfectly is God, without all the mood swings. He gets angry...sure, but his word is straight and true, it never changes, he never changes. His love never fails.
We look to a man or woman for love, but it fails because we are in our fleshly bodies, that are born to die.
We can imitate, or reflect the word of God or even act out his will of love but we are no substitute for the real deal..
I think some people get that mixed up when they come to Christians for love, thinking that it will be a better substitute for God.
Christians are regular people too, they just have opened eyes to the truth of who God really is, and how he really feels about them...they are capable of being as horrible as the next person.
The only thing that saves us or gives us hope is.. Love. Knowing that it is real, that there is proof of it...knowing that God
really heard your prayers, even though he didn't have to...
Love is the real reason, we have reason to be alive, knowing that somebody out there in the universe is in love with you..
and you didn't have to do a thing for it, you were created for his pleasure, someone who takes pleasure in looking at you,
like you were the greatest masterpiece created, no angels, no worldly objects, no stars, nothing, could compare to the best work.... you.
Even those who are dead...God loves them, even though they don't want him..
poor God, the most rejected Lover in the universe, by his own creation..