I would like to sincerely thank everyone here for being so honest. I know different things work for everyone but some people who put on their "Jesus mask" and say, "Oh, being alone with the Lord is such a blessing!" and either aren't saying what's really in their hearts or else can't see how much some of us are hurting truly drives me up the wall.
As most of you know, I was married at 23 to someone whom I felt was my dream person fallen from the sky. It ended when I was 25 and he left for someone else. I have truly never been the same ever since, and not in a good way. People told me, "Oh, you're so young... Don't even worry about it!" Whatever. Now that A DECADE AND A HALF have gone by, I have slowly, painfully, and unnervingly come to the realization that several more could go by, and my life could easily end without finding someone. I've filled the time with everything "the good Christians" told me to do--Bible study, prayer, classes, volunteer work, ministries, taking care of kids and other people... And every night, for several thousands of nights now, I leave these people with their dates, spouses, and families... and go home alone.
And I suppose I'm supposed to say, "God wants only the best for me!" and "Whatever is God's will!!!"
Sorry. That's not me. All I can manage for now is a very honest, often angry, and very sad, "Whatever."
May God bless and comfort you!!
