Im tired of being christian.

[chasten]

Last year I made a vow to god. And for the lasst year I havent had a boyfriend, or talked to one, or anything... And the ible says anything not of faith is of sin. So I've tried sooo hard to e honest to god nd truthful and like good. Or whatever you say. QAnd I recently ind of hit this storm... and ya know whenJesus pulls away, youlose that loveing, peacful feeling? Becaue tht happened to me for the last 2 days. just rrecently moved, and I got aggrivated because I always pray, o lthe time. FOr literal. ANd I guess I got spoiled but I got mad about something, and I yelled at him and got mad. Because he's the one that told me Id be okay here, and like I thought he wouldt leave me.... But now hes gone. And I cant see a way to make it better. So last night. I was thinkng, llik3e qbout the verse tht says sorrow endureth for n8ight, but joy cometh i the moringin... ut its tonight, and I was like ALMOSt OKAY earlier, and then I GOT mad about what I was mad about the other day, and it started all over again. And Im in the same friggin spot. I dunno how to explain 8it. Hav you ever had a friend, or a oyfriend, and you guys fought, and then the ext dy you didnt even relly wanna make it better? I feel like Im waitng for my life and my spiritual iund frame4 to go bac to normal..nd its not. Jeus needs a coment ox. I should get like good behavior or something. Ya know, like totaal forgiveness in times like this. Literally..I gave my lifeup for him ..//. (I should have like immunity to him be8ing total jerk.. Y knw wht Irye4d all Friggin day today.. and it is NOT happening nymore! Im not talking to him, until h4e apologizes to me. and puts me right bakc where I ws before. Hppy and normal,and content. nd if if hou guys pry tonight remind him how md I am!!! THis is the only ost Ive3 ever written regardng my christin walk, ecause I hardly ever ave problems I cant work through or pry through. I m NOt SPENDNG nymore time eing sad!

 

[Tintin]

Sorry, I don't understand most of your post. Are you saying you're not feeling God's presence all the time? That's normal and being honest with God is good. Keep trusting in him despite what's going on in your life. Easier said than done, yes, but so very worthwhile.

 

[damombomb]

Mabe your growing in the Lord , when were babes, we seem to get spoiled, but when we are on the meat its like ok, get to work

 

[Fromdomlove]

It is true what tintin said about not feeling God's presence. Being christian is not a game, is not about to be smiling all time, we should suffer also, because our lord suffer too. The difference between our happines and suffering compared to the world is that we know where we are going. We got truly peace that the world we will never have. If you tired of being christian is means you are tired of jesus and if you are tired of jesus that means you never were a christian. It's not our power, is jesus's power. you should rest in him.

 

[Domenic]

Last year I made a vow to god. And for the lasst year I havent had a boyfriend, or talked to one, or anything... And the ible says anything not of faith is of sin. So I've tried sooo hard to e honest to god nd truthful and like good. Or whatever you say. QAnd I recently ind of hit this storm... and ya know whenJesus pulls away, youlose that loveing, peacful feeling? Becaue tht happened to me for the last 2 days. just rrecently moved, and I got aggrivated because I always pray, o lthe time. FOr literal. ANd I guess I got spoiled but I got mad about something, and I yelled at him and got mad. Because he's the one that told me Id be okay here, and like I thought he wouldt leave me.... But now hes gone. And I cant see a way to make it better. So last night. I was thinkng, llik3e qbout the verse tht says sorrow endureth for n8ight, but joy cometh i the moringin... ut its tonight, and I was like ALMOSt OKAY earlier, and then I GOT mad about what I was mad about the other day, and it started all over again. And Im in the same friggin spot. I dunno how to explain 8it. Hav you ever had a friend, or a oyfriend, and you guys fought, and then the ext dy you didnt even relly wanna make it better? I feel like Im waitng for my life and my spiritual iund frame4 to go bac to normal..nd its not. Jeus needs a coment ox. I should get like good behavior or something. Ya know, like totaal forgiveness in times like this. Literally..I gave my lifeup for him ..//. (I should have like immunity to him be8ing total jerk.. Y knw wht Irye4d all Friggin day today.. and it is NOT happening nymore! Im not talking to him, until h4e apologizes to me. and puts me right bakc where I ws before. Hppy and normal,and content. nd if if hou guys pry tonight remind him how md I am!!! THis is the only ost Ive3 ever written regardng my christin walk, ecause I hardly ever ave problems I cant work through or pry through. I m NOt SPENDNG nymore time eing sad!

Jesus does not pull away from us...we pull away from him...keep reading your Bible. The truth you seek is there.

 

[chasten]

well usually I m smiles al the time. i didnt used to feel his presence all the time ut then I started asking for hi if I didnt And now I do. God thinks about us when we make it a point to think bout him. you rep what you sow so the more you give the more you get... which I know, and Ive thought about, so Ill just pr, nd stop being stuborn, and tell him he's my est frend nd I need him... and*m sorry for being stubborn and we wiill do this however he wnts too, s og s he doest eve again, Those are my rules... And FYI Im pretty upet rght now. serous tlk.. I crie4ed erlier. But Im not gona sit qnd be sad or e wayfrom the peace of god if I can help it... or purposely fully suffer by my own means.Why would I invite anger, sadess nd discomfort into my home and heart? Can anyone spell Satan? ANd *Bleep*.. ANyoe i the world is going to get tired of suffereing. So Im upoosed to suffer, but I hve to be happy about it? and if Im not, then I DONT KNOW JESUS? That makes no sense Id raather thing he is everything good nd pure, nd rest in him, and hve like pms days, where he has to bu me ice cream. Usually Im nnot so stuborn really,ut i eed to pray for uhm/... strenghth to pull through... becuse the issues rising re arising fro stuborn spirit and me just not wanting to pull through... But I love him, so maye if I pray he will give me another chance. nd some strenghth.

 

[Tintin]

Slow down. Your typing is very confusing. Take your time. Let it come.

 

[Maynard]

well usually I m smiles al the time. i didnt used to feel his presence all the time ut then I started asking for hi if I didnt And now I do. God thinks about us when we make it a point to think bout him. you rep what you sow so the more you give the more you get... which I know, and Ive thought about, so Ill just pr, nd stop being stuborn, and tell him he's my est frend nd I need him... and*m sorry for being stubborn and we wiill do this however he wnts too, s og s he doest eve again, Those are my rules... And FYI Im pretty upet rght now. serous tlk.. I crie4ed erlier. But Im not gona sit qnd be sad or e wayfrom the peace of god if I can help it... or purposely fully suffer by my own means.Why would I invite anger, sadess nd discomfort into my home and heart? Can anyone spell Satan? ANd wtf.. ANyoe i the world is going to get tired of suffereing. So Im upoosed to suffer, but I hve to be happy about it? and if Im not, then I DONT KNOW JESUS? That makes no sense Id raather thing he is everything good nd pure, nd rest in him, and hve like pms days, where he has to bu me ice cream. Usually Im nnot so stuborn really,ut i eed to pray for uhm/... strenghth to pull through... becuse the issues rising re arising fro stuborn spirit and me just not wanting to pull through... But I love him, so maye if I pray he will give me another chance. nd some strenghth.

He does love you, very much, chasten. But we do not make rules for Him and tell Him how he can best serve us. His love for you is unconditional, yet you are putting conditions on your love for Him.
You cannot conform Christ to fit your life. You must conform your life to Him in order to be His disciple. That is non-negotiable.


Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it."
Mat 16:24-25

 

[Ugly]

Sounds to me like you're being selfish and demanding. You had things going well, and now that things have gotten rough you're throwing a tantrum and mad at God because things aren't going the way YOU want them to, and since God isn't snapping His fingers and giving you what you want, when you want, how you want then you're going to throw a fit and blame God.
God never promises an easy life, and if you thought God told you you would, then that wasn't God, because that isn't supported in the bible.
Fact is true growth in your faith comes from the HARD times in your life. The easy times in your life are when you just cruise along without growing. Maybe its time to stop telling God how He should run things, and start doing things His way. Accept the fact that life has suffering. Sometimes a lot. It sucks, i know, i've suffered most of my life in one fashion or another. But trying to fight against it and expect God to make it disappear so you never have to suffer again just isn't going to happen. Once you learn the benefits of suffering, it can make it easier to deal with. Its still hard, but it helps.

 

[chasten]

Well if Jeus was loving me 50 % and I ws only putting in 25% then I could underwtand hi eing like *Bleep*. Ut thwts for him to say. H#e wants my heart and thwats pretty uch non negotionalble. QAnd if I did somethng that de Jesus not what to talk or have a relationship then I would expect him to fix it for me, because ilove him. But FYI like I said Ive done pretty well for the lst year. Because Like i said this is the firstg time Ive had prolems like these. BUt I can feel him near me right now.. so yeh. Public conf4esion!! JESUS love you and Im sorrry for being mad. I love you. P.S. Tell Jesus he would leave me or likes leaving me. Or whtev ad see what happens to you. >:3 Hedo4esnt like leaving, soemtimes I ge4t madd nd stuoorn and I mis him if he leaves, thts called love, not whatever. So yeaah. Im gonna go pray. ANAd talk to Jesus. Nd ply some video games. And let him fix this mes I creat4ed. *Muah*

 

[chasten]

Oh you mean like being 'emo' or whatever? Im not Emo. QAnd pretty sure Jesus dint like ssuffering. and whe m with Jesus I dont eel like Im suffereing. Or sad at all. I feel like Im loved, nd as long as I dont keep stuff for hm tht we both wat to be known, then I usually dont get caught up in too much trouble4 BUT like I sid pulic confession, prolen solved and Ill e on meh way now thanx. :0 Just dont hide stuff that bothers you or hurts you from hiim.. thats what I usually get chstened for... f I strt crying, nd the move awy from him then in my exereinecehe kind of gets mad.. but draw ngh to god and he WILL draw nigh to you thts for sure..

 

[SeanS]

(I should have like immunity to him be8ing total jerk.. Y knw wht Irye4d all Friggin day today.. and it is NOT happening nymore! Im not talking to him, until h4e apologizes to me. and puts me right bakc where I ws before.

Umm, I think you have lost perspective of who God is and who you are.


God is perfect:

Psalm 18:30- 'As for God, his way is perfect'


And you are dust:

Genesis 3:19- 'From dust you were formed and to dust you will return'

Romans 9:20- 'But who are you o man to talk back to God, will what is moulded say to its moulder, why have you made me thus'


You are treading on dangerous ground, you remember the story of Job? Job was afflicted even though he was blameless in Gods sight, but in chapter 23 he accused God of acting unjustly. As a result his suffering was extended till he got to the point where he hated himself and solemnly repented.

Job 42:6- 'Therefore I hate myself and repent in dust and ashes'.

Thats what you need to do if you want to avoid the chastening of God. Hate yourself for the accusations you have made against him and repent in sincere fashion.

 

[Tintin]

It hurts to see the English language mutilated.

 

[Abiding]

My wife used to get this way about once a month.
There was nothing i could do about it but be nice and wait it out.

 

[Donkeyfish07]

We all have bad things happen in our lives and tough experiences we go through......blaming them on God is a really dumb idea though....none of them are God's fault

 

[Ariel82]

My wife used to get this way about once a month.
There was nothing i could do about it but be nice and wait it out.

see there is wisdom here the younger men should pay attention to. lol Here are for those who need a translation........

Because Like i said this is the first time I've had problems like these. But I can feel him near me right now.. so yeh. Public confession!! JESUS love you and I'm sorry for being mad. I love you. P.S. Tell Jesus he would leave me or likes leaving me. Or whatever and see what happens to you. >:3 He doesn't like leaving, sometimes I get mad and stubborn and I miss him if he leaves, that is called love, not whatever. So yeah. I'm gonna go pray. And talk to Jesus. and ply some video games. And let him fix this mess I created. *Muah*

the last thing was a *kiss* .............she is probably typing on a phone, those things are so annoy. much like when I use my tablet.........interesting what people type at midnight.......

 

[wwjd_kilden]

"young man, young man, your arms are too short to box with God"

I think it is OK for us to be mad at God sometimes... BUT, we need to remember that the reason for things going wrong in our lives are either because of man's sinful nature (either our own wrongs or those of other people), or because God has a different plan than what we intended. And yeah, I know, it's no fun at all when it feels your life is crashing down around you.

The thing is though: He has plans for you, and if you dare trust Him, just for a moment, and bow to His will, He will do things you'd never imagine possible. He can turn our anger, frustration and failures to joy and hope.... but before that happens, we need to stop, listen and act on what He tells us.

 

[PeteWaldo]

Funny I should happen on this thread after posting on the one I just did.

Last year I made a vow to god. And for the lasst year I havent had a boyfriend, or talked to one, or anything..

God doesn't want you to give up boyfriends. Premarital sex? yes.
A good rule of thumb is, don't date anybody past the point at which, you cannot picture spending the rest of your life with them. The quicker you get out of a relationship after that point the better it is for both of you. What would the point really be? Perhaps just begging for trouble.

. And the ible says anything not of faith is of sin. So I've tried sooo hard to e honest to god nd truthful and like good. Or whatever you say. QAnd I recently ind of hit this storm... and ya know whenJesus pulls away, youlose that loveing, peacful feeling? Becaue tht happened to me for the last 2 days. just rrecently moved, and I got aggrivated because I always pray, o lthe time. FOr literal. ANd I guess I got spoiled but I got mad about something, and I yelled at him and got mad. Because he's the one that told me Id be okay here, and like I thought he wouldt leave me.... But now hes gone. And I cant see a way to make it better. So last night. I was thinkng, llik3e qbout the verse tht says sorrow endureth for n8ight, but joy cometh i the moringin... ut its tonight, and I was like ALMOSt OKAY earlier, and then I GOT mad about what I was mad about the other day, and it started all over again. And Im in the same friggin spot. I dunno how to explain 8it. Hav you ever had a friend, or a oyfriend, and you guys fought, and then the ext dy you didnt even relly wanna make it better? I feel like Im waitng for my life and my spiritual iund frame4 to go bac to normal..nd its not. Jeus needs a coment ox. I should get like good behavior or something. Ya know, like totaal forgiveness in times like this. Literally..I gave my lifeup for him ..//. (I should have like immunity to him be8ing total jerk.. Y knw wht Irye4d all Friggin day today.. and it is NOT happening nymore! Im not talking to him, until h4e apologizes to me. and puts me right bakc where I ws before. Hppy and normal,and content. nd if if hou guys pry tonight remind him how md I am!!! THis is the only ost Ive3 ever written regardng my christin walk, ecause I hardly ever ave problems I cant work through or pry through. I m NOt SPENDNG nymore time eing sad!

If I understand you right, what happened to me might help. In 2003 I went forward at an "alter call" and parroted a "sinners prayer" and the preacher even proclaimed to the 50-70 folks lined up "congratulations, your name is written in the Lamb's book of life". But we have to wonder how could he have had any idea, as to either the condition of everyone's hearts, or God's judgments? Now I can't know God's judgments, so I can't say one way or the other. But I went home, and still consumed my usual - more than a moderate amount of wine (though I was pretending to myself it was moderate) - and I did some advancing doctrine on line, and things that I thought I should do, (including speak before my former ECUSA church, and privately to my former ECUSA pastor about what had been done to that body).

Well anyway, I realized one day that I had many thoughts that were evil, and I was drinking even more than my prior non-moderate amount. Then when I thought back over the prior couple of weeks in my head, I could see how it had gradually built up to that point. I suddenly realized that the enemy was quite firmly in control of my life and was desperate and stunned! I didn't know where to turn. Then all at once it struck me what to do. I shouted right out loud:

"SATAN I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE JESUS THROW YOU IN THAT LAKE OF FIRE"

I was immediately released, and all of those evil thoughts vanished in that instant!
All which is as much to say, maybe you've been shouting at the wrong guy!

 

[Anonimous]

It hurts to see the English language mutilated.

Would that be the Queen's English or American English. Thays uh grate big ol' difrense.Ha Ha

 

[GreekChristian777]

Chasten, life is hard. It is really hard. One thing is that in John 16:33 Jesus said "In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.” I know. I am struggling. I think many people are having a really hard time. I think more and more will have harder and harder times. The best advice I have is to just try to work on your intimate relationship with Jesus. He did not promise that we would have a great life here. He wants us to share the gospel with the hurting people who are looking for an answer.... I don't even know if what I said will help. I would like to send and receive messages from you. Maybe we could have some sort of online friendship. Maybe it would help to have someone who is going through hard times who has compassion too. If so, I would love to hear from you.

God bless you. Don't give up on God when you have hard times. Let those hard times bring you closer to him.
Pete