In December of 2014 I had weight loss surgery. I had a sleeve gastrectomy. I did this because I needed help. I was very heavy and in pain. I was also always hungry.
I knew before that surgery that I am a food addict. I went to support meetings and realized what I was doing to myself. Before they do the surgery insurance requires you to take a number of years. You must have a psychological evaluation, a sleep study, for sleep somewhat, a heart test, a stomach scope. You have to go to support group meetings. You must also lose some weight before the surgery.
I was bulemic in my twenties, I did get help for that, but I still and will probably always look in the mirror and see a fat girl. Even when I was a size 6 I thought I was fat. I have lost a lot of weight since the surgery, I'm not at my goal and I don't know when I will be. I will never regret having the surgery because it saved me from myself. I am no longer endlessly hungry and I see a nutritionist who helps me make the right choices. I don't dwell on my weight anymore and I don't fanatically exercise fanatically anymore. I take my day's one day at a time. Do I eat the wrong thing sometimes, yep. Do I make myself vomit anymore, nope. Do I look at other people's food especially those who are overweight and think, gosh, that's to much food, you shouldn't eat that? No I don't. I know the struggle, I do guide my kids to eat the right thing's, that's my job as a parent.
Being obese isn't fun, people who are obese don't wake up one day and say, boy I'd like to disobey God and be fat. Most of them struggle not to eat the bad stuff. You want to fat shame someone or tell them God says it's a sin, from experience I can tell you that person is beating themselves up more than you ever could.
it's my genes. But I also have been a Christian all my life and a born-again Christan since I was 13. I never looked at other people's appearance to know how much they love Christ.
