Anxious thoughts

thankyou Charli, that is kind of you.

A few months ago God gave me a dream. There were all these people in a line and I watched them one by one walk into the water that quickly went over their heads. They seemed to be at peace though like they were not concerned. I was last in line and as I saw these people I thought to myself I dont want to go into that water as it goes over your head and I dont want to drown. I then saw God in the water and he was motioning to me to come into the deep. He said as I do I will see the origins of the things that I struggle with. Then I woke up. I knew God was asking me to let go and come into the deep and boy since then it has been DIFFICULT and I have struggled with anxious thoughts. I know he is in the process of changing some things in me and it is very difficult and uncomfortable but I want change so I am trying as best as I can to walk in the deep and let go. Don't know if that may speak to you in any way?

Coffee It is now 11.30pm here Sat night and time for bed. Hope you have a great day.

Oh me oh my, hope you rest well. Yes, no coffee for you.

That dream how wonderfully vivid, and so powerful too. I love that you are going deeper, I need that as well, and would agree that it comes with responsibility, thus anxiousness. We must have balance and patience there too, huh?

We don't want to reach for things too lofty, He will lead us, right...in His timing, in His way? He has to be at the helm.

I struggle wanting to grasp and understand everything too much. He is helping me to NOT quit seeking Him and His mysteries, but to NOT do so with the idea that I'll have it all figured out, but rather to merely draw closer to Him and His love that surpasses knowledge. Ephesians 3:14-20 really helps me.

I am inspired by your quest to go deeper. I find myself either digging in too much or then letting it all go too much. Balance is key, and He is that balance. We are in this together and you have blessed, encouraged and inspired me today. I am grateful!!!

What a thing imagines like within me deserves my outward reaction, what a thing looks or acts like in the natural outwardly of its own will gets no reaction or validation. For a normal person how a thing imagines within them is both irrelevant and valueless because the image or what it looks and acts like which is seen as most valueable doesn't line up with it. To them its not liveable and not worthy of investing their emotions or thoughts/imaginations on and it's most certainly not worth conforming to those imaginations until it first starts to act differently.

With me it's all discipline and restriction from what the doings are on the outside but being also submit to and conformed into and shaped after how i first imagined it to be doing from on the inside. Because i understand the connection between imagination and myself and that i am what my mind is after i make peace with it, submitting to my mind rather than fight with the outer image. When i fight against negative thoughts or negative imaginations which are all of me im really just fighting against myself and my own energy. Instead i focus on imagining the negative but in a way that makes me at peace about it, for example with disease im made aware of i imagine and practice and submit myself to feeling good about it being gone or leaving. When i imagine better and rest on my own content God sees what im doing and rewards me according to what im doing Jeremiah 17:10.

Im not perfect at it but i have been healed and i have seen many miracles happen from operating this way. It's not the easiest thing to practice but eventually you get to a place to where you can rest on your doings and thoughts rather than having to rely on the security of how things look or act.