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Where do I begin? When I was a kid people told me I should be an artist because I could draw well. Even my art teachers told me that. Drawing was my favorite thing and I drew all the time. No cartoons or anime (I don't even think anime existed then). I always tried to draw things realistically.
So anyway I got a degree in graphic design and worked as a graphic artist for most of my working life. I enjoyed it at first but then I got stuck working for small companies that were very poorly managed so I got tired of it and decided to go into the medical field because I've wanted to for many years.
I would have taken up nursing but I don't have the stomach for it, so I became a pharmacy tech instead. My goal was to eventually work in a hospital. It usually takes a few years of retail pharmacy experience before you can qualify... Well my first pharmacy job was a horrible experience. Not because of the job itself, but because of the way I was treated by my coworkers who basically didn't want me in their little clique.
Anyway, that job got cut short when my dad got sick with cancer and I spent the next 2 years caring for him. After he passed away I didn't know what I wanted to do or could do. Those 2 years changed me. I used to have a very sharp mind and nearly aced my national pharmacy certification exam which was mostly complex math problems.... but now I am so forgetful. I can't even remember 3 things on a shopping list or where I parked my car. People say its normal, but for me it is not. Needless to say, I have abandoned my desire to work in the medical field because I am no longer mentally fit to perform critical tasks, plus the fact that hospitals remind me of all the stuff my dad went through during those 2 years. I still have my sense of admiration and respect for doctors and nurses though..
So this brings me to where I am now.. Trying to start my own small business. It will be a one man operation and a very demanding one, but I keep running into unrelated problems that are preventing me from getting started. The first one put me in the hospital at the end of last year. Luckily it was nothing serious. But after that, it was a months long road to getting well enough to give my business idea another go... And then right after I start to make progress I suffer an injury that is totally unrelated to my work. Its something that requires more than a few days off. It's been a series of injuries and illnesses for the last few months. In fact right now I am just getting over a rotator cuff injury and a bout of sinusitis. So I don't know if I will ever have a job that I love. Lately I've been feeling like just giving up on everything.
So anyway I got a degree in graphic design and worked as a graphic artist for most of my working life. I enjoyed it at first but then I got stuck working for small companies that were very poorly managed so I got tired of it and decided to go into the medical field because I've wanted to for many years.
I would have taken up nursing but I don't have the stomach for it, so I became a pharmacy tech instead. My goal was to eventually work in a hospital. It usually takes a few years of retail pharmacy experience before you can qualify... Well my first pharmacy job was a horrible experience. Not because of the job itself, but because of the way I was treated by my coworkers who basically didn't want me in their little clique.
Anyway, that job got cut short when my dad got sick with cancer and I spent the next 2 years caring for him. After he passed away I didn't know what I wanted to do or could do. Those 2 years changed me. I used to have a very sharp mind and nearly aced my national pharmacy certification exam which was mostly complex math problems.... but now I am so forgetful. I can't even remember 3 things on a shopping list or where I parked my car. People say its normal, but for me it is not. Needless to say, I have abandoned my desire to work in the medical field because I am no longer mentally fit to perform critical tasks, plus the fact that hospitals remind me of all the stuff my dad went through during those 2 years. I still have my sense of admiration and respect for doctors and nurses though..
So this brings me to where I am now.. Trying to start my own small business. It will be a one man operation and a very demanding one, but I keep running into unrelated problems that are preventing me from getting started. The first one put me in the hospital at the end of last year. Luckily it was nothing serious. But after that, it was a months long road to getting well enough to give my business idea another go... And then right after I start to make progress I suffer an injury that is totally unrelated to my work. Its something that requires more than a few days off. It's been a series of injuries and illnesses for the last few months. In fact right now I am just getting over a rotator cuff injury and a bout of sinusitis. So I don't know if I will ever have a job that I love. Lately I've been feeling like just giving up on everything.
Aww Z, I’m sure there is something in the pipeline for you.
In Jesus you have a hope and a future.
Are you taking care of yourself eating sleeping properly etc. (That’s the mother
in me). In difficult times even if you can’t do anything else, you need to take care
of yourself.
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