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I hope that someday I can feel the same as you do Lynn. I guess I will have to read the book you mentioned. I am unable to pray at this point. One, I feel ashamed of my anger towards The Lord. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I can't help it since I know only He has/had the power to keep us protected from ALL this hurt. And two, I really feel right now it's pointless to pray. The Lord has demonstrated He will do whatever he likes whenever he likes so what's the point in praying.
Big shocker. He loves (present tense) your sister Lynn too. But that's why you need to read the book. None of this is punishment. None of it is for your bad. Lynn is with him. She already got her "Well done good and faithful servant" and she's basking in God. You too can be basking. Not like we have to wait for the good stuff. He is the good stuff. Yes, at his pleasure whenever and however, but also for our good. He really loves us. He's not doing any of this out of hate.