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- by Lowanla (me)
- by Lowanla (me)
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There go the cowboys charging down the prairies;
sigh, click,
there stands a man stirring chocolate mix in a bowl;
sigh, click,
there sway gracefully, dancers telling the most beautiful stories;
Sigh, click,
there two lovers run on the beach hand in hand, most fascinating;
As I continue to watch the screen
pretending that I live in that world,
but its only fantasy.
Even though I'm watching the screen,
pretending I'm really there
eventually I will blink
and remember...
I have to get back to reality.
click!
click!
*turns off tv and walks away*
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...a song I heard when I was a teen, yet it still applies for me today, its just how I feel right now..
My Friend (So Long)
Song and Lyrics by: DC Talk
Song and Lyrics by: DC Talk
"I heard your record on the telephone
It was my cousin, Joan
She picked it up from the top 40 rack and then
I read your interview in Rolling Stone
You threw the boys a bone
And so I genuinely felt obliged to call
It was my cousin, Joan
She picked it up from the top 40 rack and then
I read your interview in Rolling Stone
You threw the boys a bone
And so I genuinely felt obliged to call
I know You never meant to hurt us, man
We're just a baby band
You found a quicker way
To scale the wall of fame
We're just a baby band
You found a quicker way
To scale the wall of fame
The situation's awfully dim
Should we up and go with Him?
No way
Should we up and go with Him?
No way
(chorus)
We know exactly where you are, and you're gone
my friend
Don't know exactly where you're coming from
You've gone away my friend
We know exactly where you are, and you're gone
my friend
Don't know exactly where you're coming from
Have you gone astray
gone
We know exactly where you are, and you're gone
my friend
Don't know exactly where you're coming from
You've gone away my friend
We know exactly where you are, and you're gone
my friend
Don't know exactly where you're coming from
Have you gone astray
gone
I saw your video on VH-1
Looks like they spent a ton
How does it feel to be the flavor for a spell
Looks like they spent a ton
How does it feel to be the flavor for a spell
And I remember when you used to say
"Jesus is the way"
I never thought I'd see your light begin to fade
"Jesus is the way"
I never thought I'd see your light begin to fade
The situation's awfully dim
Should we up and go with him?
No way
Should we up and go with him?
No way
(chorus)
Don't think we don't miss you
We think about you every day
We still love you anyway
Love don't go away
There's still this burning question
I got to know
Why?
We think about you every day
We still love you anyway
Love don't go away
There's still this burning question
I got to know
Why?
What will people think when they
Hear that I'm a Jesus freak?
Hear that I'm a Jesus freak?
So Long We'll see you someday
Wish You Well"
Wish You Well"
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Free as a bird XD
- By Lowanla (me)
- By Lowanla (me)
The air is crisp and cold as I wait behind the cage
in excited energy. I can sense the people around
me I can hear everything in anticipation.
in excited energy. I can sense the people around
me I can hear everything in anticipation.
For so long have I been kept behind the cage
in closed captivity.
For so long have I not seen another Eagle
that flew so high so free as me.
in closed captivity.
For so long have I not seen another Eagle
that flew so high so free as me.
The cage lifts and I rush out before they can guide
me through the process.
I ignore their calls and cries
as I make my escape a glorious success.
me through the process.
I ignore their calls and cries
as I make my escape a glorious success.
Gliding on the wind far up above those around me,
I am free to soar to new heights far from captivity
yes this is the place for me - freedom
I am free to soar to new heights far from captivity
yes this is the place for me - freedom
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The wonderful thing about freewill is
forgiveness is not an option
and the same time its not a requirement
its a choice made by the people
who are the most grown up.
my anger is not worth it I let it go,
I bless you with all my best.
I admit I was in the wrong too
by pushing you past your limitations and strengths,
it was my fault...
I know I am no better and I am a hypocrite
at times,
I'm not apologizing because i'm required to;
I am because I want to, your too important
to me to keep kicking you down,
anyway, I'm sorry again.
its just a mere apology and I am not expecting anything,
to me to say sorry to you means that I respect you.
Everyone deserves respect no matter what.
forgiveness is not an option
and the same time its not a requirement
its a choice made by the people
who are the most grown up.
my anger is not worth it I let it go,
I bless you with all my best.
I admit I was in the wrong too
by pushing you past your limitations and strengths,
it was my fault...
I know I am no better and I am a hypocrite
at times,
I'm not apologizing because i'm required to;
I am because I want to, your too important
to me to keep kicking you down,
anyway, I'm sorry again.
its just a mere apology and I am not expecting anything,
to me to say sorry to you means that I respect you.
Everyone deserves respect no matter what.
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Just now watched that movie Act of Valor thought it was awesome! I'm so proud. 
They read Tecumseh's Poem on it and I thought that was the coolest thing I have heard. This is something I strive to live by myself...here it is...I'm not afraid.
Tecumseh Poem
Written By Tecumseh
So live your life that the fear of death
can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion;
respect others in their view,
and demand that they respect yours.
Love your life, perfect your life,
beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose
in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day
when you go over the great divide.
Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting
or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.
When you arise in the morning give thanks
for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself.
Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools and robs the spirit of its vision.
When it comes your time to die,
be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death,
so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way.
Sing your death song and die like a hero going home.
They read Tecumseh's Poem on it and I thought that was the coolest thing I have heard. This is something I strive to live by myself...here it is...I'm not afraid. Tecumseh Poem
Written By Tecumseh
So live your life that the fear of death
can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion;
respect others in their view,
and demand that they respect yours.
Love your life, perfect your life,
beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose
in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day
when you go over the great divide.
Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting
or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.
When you arise in the morning give thanks
for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself.
Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools and robs the spirit of its vision.
When it comes your time to die,
be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death,
so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way.
Sing your death song and die like a hero going home.
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Kick fear to the Curb
- By Lowanla (me)
- By Lowanla (me)
When the day has finally ended
Whats gonna happen tomorrow?
after all the tears and heartache
after all the broken dreams and sorrows;
Whats gonna happen tomorrow?
after all the tears and heartache
after all the broken dreams and sorrows;
whats gonna happen tomorrow?
everyone messes up, and everyone makes
mistakes.
mistakes.
but there is always a choice to forgive others, and to forgive oneself..
its should also be a requirement too.
its should also be a requirement too.
Its the guilt and condemnation that freeze
a person in time not to move forward.
Its the fear and doubt that they can't move
past that mark in time.
a person in time not to move forward.
Its the fear and doubt that they can't move
past that mark in time.
thats just fear lying, kick fear to the curb
because tomorrow is a new day..
because tomorrow is a new day..
new possibilities, new dreams, new loves,
and the best part about it;
is that the heart eventually heals
and gets stronger.
You can make it.
and the best part about it;
is that the heart eventually heals
and gets stronger.
You can make it.
Do not be afraid of tomorrow
because growth happens
and you become wiser and stronger.
because growth happens
and you become wiser and stronger.
Do not be afraid of tomorrow
do not be afraid to love
do not be afraid to truly live.
do not be afraid to love
do not be afraid to truly live.
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Mighty man of Valor,
I declare this into your life that
you will walk into this type of boldness,
this year, I declare that there will be a breakthrough of
bravery, and strength that will come into your life.
you will walk into this type of boldness,
this year, I declare that there will be a breakthrough of
bravery, and strength that will come into your life.
I rebuke the spirit of fear in your life.
I bless you that you come into the
revelation and knowledge of Jesus Christ
and his love for you and what he has done
for you. I bless you that you will be
blessed abundantly, with life and hope daily.
I bless you that you come into the
revelation and knowledge of Jesus Christ
and his love for you and what he has done
for you. I bless you that you will be
blessed abundantly, with life and hope daily.
I rebuke the devourer and the darkness
from your life. I command every evil thing
of bondage to release you in Jesus name.
I call forth healing, freedom, and peace
from the Kingdom of Heaven in Jesus name
over you.
I declare in Jesus name that this is your year
of freedom.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
from your life. I command every evil thing
of bondage to release you in Jesus name.
I call forth healing, freedom, and peace
from the Kingdom of Heaven in Jesus name
over you.
I declare in Jesus name that this is your year
of freedom.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
P.S. I believe I have found hope ... thats why I will not be moved. <3
thats why I will not be moved. <3
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I've always seen the good in you - still do, and if it is Gods will, he'll make the crooked path straight and reunite us in truth and love, because it is the most beautiful thing I had to let go because of many reasons I cannot begin to explain now until later on, it hurts
...but If your heart is true then God will make a way, that will be better than you could have imagined, heres hoping...
there is nothing impossible for him.
I'm trusting in God
...but If your heart is true then God will make a way, that will be better than you could have imagined, heres hoping...
there is nothing impossible for him.
I'm trusting in God
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*sighs* ...I guess I have my answer..
that means am free to open my heart to the world..
this is uncharted territory for me only because I'm doing this now
that I have a choice again, its kind of scary for me...if they can find someone easily so can I. *walks forward*
I will not be moved
Song and Lyrics by: Natalie Grant
I will Not Be Moved-Lyrics - YouTube
I have been a wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubts
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And here's the reason why
I will stumble, I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock,
I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved, no, no
Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams
And though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on
I will stumble, I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock, I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved
And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
And though I have been torn
I will not
I will not be moved, no, no
I will not be moved, no
I will not be moved, no
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock, I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved, no, no
Not be moved, no, no, no, no, no
that means am free to open my heart to the world..
this is uncharted territory for me only because I'm doing this now
that I have a choice again, its kind of scary for me...if they can find someone easily so can I. *walks forward*
I will not be moved
Song and Lyrics by: Natalie Grant
I will Not Be Moved-Lyrics - YouTube
I have been a wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubts
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And here's the reason why
I will stumble, I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock,
I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved, no, no
Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams
And though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on
I will stumble, I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock, I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved
And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
And though I have been torn
I will not
I will not be moved, no, no
I will not be moved, no
I will not be moved, no
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ, the Solid Rock, I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved, no, no
Not be moved, no, no, no, no, no
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Sabotage
- By Lowanla (me)
- By Lowanla (me)
I've done it again;
destroyed something beautiful,
the most wondeful thing I've
experienced - love.
why do I do such things?
because I am the monster
not you.
destroyed something beautiful,
the most wondeful thing I've
experienced - love.
why do I do such things?
because I am the monster
not you.
I know I wrong you; breaking your heart
every second every bit of me
outpours clumsy arrogance and bitterness;
I know you've tried and you've tried.
every second every bit of me
outpours clumsy arrogance and bitterness;
I know you've tried and you've tried.
I don't know how to handle wonderful things;
I'm afraid of them truly and I'm afraid of
your love. I've always had a choice with you,
even though I said I didn't, I was only torturing you
just to spite you.
I'm afraid of them truly and I'm afraid of
your love. I've always had a choice with you,
even though I said I didn't, I was only torturing you
just to spite you.
I'm sorry, you deserve better from me,
because this is the truth,
I love you.
I just don't know how to love you.
I'm willing to learn and change
for love only because
you've waited so long.
I love you.
because this is the truth,
I love you.
I just don't know how to love you.
I'm willing to learn and change
for love only because
you've waited so long.
I love you.
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Realistically, blinded, confused, love?
- by Lowanla (me)
I'm floating waiting in the air as I hear you calling, screaming my name in anger;
You're angry, because like you I tried to move on; its not the reaction you wanted,
I've made you unhappy again, but isn't that the game you were playing with my mind?
I've let go of sanity, everything waiting for something real from you..what do you want?
its dark, lonely and cold in this house; I can't see you, but I can feel you, I can hear you.
as your pulling me under the black waters I do not panic, I do not move, I do not breath.
its nothing for me to forgive every heartbreaking mistake;
unforgiveness is not worth it if your heart is truely true.
You know what to do...but I do not know why you are so afraid to do so.
Why must everything be a grand parade with you, and why must you be so complicated?
...I'm afraid,
I'm alone,
I'm afraid,
your confusing me...
what do you want of me?
You already know me, that I would give everything, yet realistically to me you've said none.
are you afraid? Are you confused? because I am...just talk to me already.
I am not afraid of those who threaten my life, I don't care, I'm not afraid, for they aren't truly alive like me.
...but still...
there is undeniable, obvious, realistic fear of you wanting to never physically see me;
the thought - that when I reach out my hand you will not be brave to grab my hand too.
You are always leaving me hanging...
what exactly do you want of me?
- by Lowanla (me)
I'm floating waiting in the air as I hear you calling, screaming my name in anger;
You're angry, because like you I tried to move on; its not the reaction you wanted,
I've made you unhappy again, but isn't that the game you were playing with my mind?
I've let go of sanity, everything waiting for something real from you..what do you want?
its dark, lonely and cold in this house; I can't see you, but I can feel you, I can hear you.
as your pulling me under the black waters I do not panic, I do not move, I do not breath.
its nothing for me to forgive every heartbreaking mistake;
unforgiveness is not worth it if your heart is truely true.
You know what to do...but I do not know why you are so afraid to do so.
Why must everything be a grand parade with you, and why must you be so complicated?
...I'm afraid,
I'm alone,
I'm afraid,
your confusing me...
what do you want of me?
You already know me, that I would give everything, yet realistically to me you've said none.
are you afraid? Are you confused? because I am...just talk to me already.
I am not afraid of those who threaten my life, I don't care, I'm not afraid, for they aren't truly alive like me.
...but still...
there is undeniable, obvious, realistic fear of you wanting to never physically see me;
the thought - that when I reach out my hand you will not be brave to grab my hand too.
You are always leaving me hanging...
what exactly do you want of me?
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I was thinking of that Loony tunes show with peppy lepew
where he says "I am stupid ...no?" for some reason that makes me laugh...this is kind of a comic
thought..
where he says "I am stupid ...no?" for some reason that makes me laugh...this is kind of a comic
thought..
I am stupid, No?
- by Lowanla (me)
- by Lowanla (me)
You could never lose me,
I could not ever be lost to you,
I get angry, furious, and sad,
those are emotions that are
temporary and don't last with me;
I'm not really sure about you,
grudges don't fit me well,
although its good to know if you use
things against me I got something on you,
mwa ha ha..just kidding..
I could not ever be lost to you,
I get angry, furious, and sad,
those are emotions that are
temporary and don't last with me;
I'm not really sure about you,
grudges don't fit me well,
although its good to know if you use
things against me I got something on you,
mwa ha ha..just kidding..
I'm always the optimist at heart,
I always bounce back to love,
although it may take some time for me,
look at the ghetto I live in,
its called being a survivor and forgiving
those around you and making sure they live,
even though we are slowly beating each other down daily,
its in our blood to live and let live...
I always bounce back to love,
although it may take some time for me,
look at the ghetto I live in,
its called being a survivor and forgiving
those around you and making sure they live,
even though we are slowly beating each other down daily,
its in our blood to live and let live...
I'm a descendant of survivors- Takini Lakota,
I'm too smart to be alive and too stupid to stay angry.
like a kicked down dog I will always return,
thats just my nature
like a kicked down dog I will always return,
thats just my nature
I am stupid, no?
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I heard this song on the radio last year and I totally relate to it so much, I found this music video too that totally relates to how I feel and what I am going through, maybe thats not what it means but thats how it feels for me, only I'm a girl...
You should know (by now) really
That this could end, really
You should know I could never make it work
Wake up
Let's pretend, really
Really
Babe
That this could end, really
You should know I could never make it work
Wake up
Let's pretend, really
Really
Babe
Do you like the way the water tastes
Like gunfire
And you knew but you could never say
Then come forth 'cause it's coming round
Round the water
Like gunfire
And you knew but you could never say
Then come forth 'cause it's coming round
Round the water
Beware the water
You should know
Babe
At least pretend you did know why
It's not like you watch so go on take a drink
Really
Babe
Babe
At least pretend you did know why
It's not like you watch so go on take a drink
Really
Babe
Do you like the way the water tastes
Like gunfire
You knew but it was never safe
Take one more 'cause it's coming round
Round the water
Like gunfire
You knew but it was never safe
Take one more 'cause it's coming round
Round the water
Beware the water
Beware the water
Beware the water
Teeth are dry
From wind blows
If you come drinking
There you go
From wind blows
If you come drinking
There you go
Beware the water
Beware the water
Beware the water
Beware the water
Do you like the way the water tastes
Do you like the way the water tastes?
Do you like the way the water tastes?
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I've always had a huge crush on this guy, Kevin Max when he was on DC Talk <3
he inspired me to be creative, I relate to this poem...I am trying to remember that Jesus will never let me go no matter how dark it gets for me.
he inspired me to be creative, I relate to this poem...I am trying to remember that Jesus will never let me go no matter how dark it gets for me.
There Is A Treason At Sea
Poem by Kevin Max
Poem by Kevin Max
I am solo
in this world of water
Only the tip of a sunrise visible
Like the morning light in a little girl's eyes
I crave this freedom
I find it only in this little ship
Just my soul and this bread and butter
I am comfortable
But there is a treason at sea
Is it me?
It is a wonder, supernatural cover of war
The dark ones who eternal in damnation grow
Set about me now
How they whine and crow
I am solo
In this world of wet
And bitter is my temperament
I close the door to sentiment
And I relish all my youth
I realize that I am doomed
Fear of love and fear of you
But you give me the keys to paradise
It is you who sympathize
You and your perfection grow
I am cradled in your ocean's throw
I crave your freedom in this little ship
For you alone can chart my trip
And like these waves I lose my grip
And I sink into your arms
in this world of water
Only the tip of a sunrise visible
Like the morning light in a little girl's eyes
I crave this freedom
I find it only in this little ship
Just my soul and this bread and butter
I am comfortable
But there is a treason at sea
Is it me?
It is a wonder, supernatural cover of war
The dark ones who eternal in damnation grow
Set about me now
How they whine and crow
I am solo
In this world of wet
And bitter is my temperament
I close the door to sentiment
And I relish all my youth
I realize that I am doomed
Fear of love and fear of you
But you give me the keys to paradise
It is you who sympathize
You and your perfection grow
I am cradled in your ocean's throw
I crave your freedom in this little ship
For you alone can chart my trip
And like these waves I lose my grip
And I sink into your arms
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I truly believe that the only ones who are eternally damned are the ones who daily make the choice to stay that way, everyone has a choice, after we leave the body after death forever do we lose that chance, if your in your body your still alive...
everyone has a chance to change their mind, but not everyone does..
everyone has a chance to change their mind, but not everyone does..
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My Testimony...- My Guy to read..
a few years ago, I was lost and I lost the true meaning of life or my reason for living,
I had the whats the use' attitude, until I started having dreams of who I shall call 'my guy' who is not
really my guy anymore, at least I think I can't really read his mind of what he thinks...IM SO CONFUSED with that one... but ohh well..
but in my story he had a great significance to my salvation,
I had dreams of him, he would always be trying to get my attention in my dreams, reaching his hand out for me, I never knew why he did, or why he'd want to, he was a stranger to me,
Well two years ago, my dreams and feelings got worse the more and more he entered my life, I didn't know what he wanted...I started losing my interest in life all together, until I started realizing he needed help, he was stuck, and somehow I felt like he was asking me for help...
I was away from God, I was drinking, I was smoking, cursing Gods name because I didn't know him, I went to bible school, I grew up as a Christian but I never really knew the grace of God, I never even knew Christ... I had the Holy Spirit but I was still doing all this...I would go to bars but nothing seemed better there for me, not even drinking helped, I was mindlessly religious, and living in fear,
I could hear the Holy Spirit whsiper to me...Pray for him...so I did, I spent days during 2010 of December through 2011 praying for him, I was attacked, spiritually and demonically, all sorts of ways,
I knelt down on my couch one day and asked God crying really hard because I was giving up hope..I couldn't understand why this was happening to me...I said...If you are truly merciful and there is hope...give me a word and I will follow it to the end... I will walk away from the world I will throw away everything of the world and follow you Lord Jesus, and keep praying for this person for their sake.
and I heard... "He will live and not die...The Lord is good and his mercies endure forever" I looked that up in the bible and that was in Psalm 118..
I gave up drinking and smoking, and I let everything of the world go I knew of that year, that is why I am saved...
So "my guy" as I call you, i don't know how you feel about me now, or if you still care, but its because of you that I am saved...So if thats worth anything, I wanna say thankyou, for giving to the Lord, you did something good. I will always be grateful to you.
lol this is a song I sang at the bars when I use to go to them...I thought of you when I did lol
this songs important to me because It reminds me of what I came out of and came through..
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Creep
Lyrics by Radiohead
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so very special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
he's running out again,
he's running out
he's run run run run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.
a few years ago, I was lost and I lost the true meaning of life or my reason for living,
I had the whats the use' attitude, until I started having dreams of who I shall call 'my guy' who is not
really my guy anymore, at least I think I can't really read his mind of what he thinks...IM SO CONFUSED with that one... but ohh well..
but in my story he had a great significance to my salvation,
I had dreams of him, he would always be trying to get my attention in my dreams, reaching his hand out for me, I never knew why he did, or why he'd want to, he was a stranger to me,
Well two years ago, my dreams and feelings got worse the more and more he entered my life, I didn't know what he wanted...I started losing my interest in life all together, until I started realizing he needed help, he was stuck, and somehow I felt like he was asking me for help...
I was away from God, I was drinking, I was smoking, cursing Gods name because I didn't know him, I went to bible school, I grew up as a Christian but I never really knew the grace of God, I never even knew Christ... I had the Holy Spirit but I was still doing all this...I would go to bars but nothing seemed better there for me, not even drinking helped, I was mindlessly religious, and living in fear,
I could hear the Holy Spirit whsiper to me...Pray for him...so I did, I spent days during 2010 of December through 2011 praying for him, I was attacked, spiritually and demonically, all sorts of ways,
I knelt down on my couch one day and asked God crying really hard because I was giving up hope..I couldn't understand why this was happening to me...I said...If you are truly merciful and there is hope...give me a word and I will follow it to the end... I will walk away from the world I will throw away everything of the world and follow you Lord Jesus, and keep praying for this person for their sake.
and I heard... "He will live and not die...The Lord is good and his mercies endure forever" I looked that up in the bible and that was in Psalm 118..
I gave up drinking and smoking, and I let everything of the world go I knew of that year, that is why I am saved...
So "my guy" as I call you, i don't know how you feel about me now, or if you still care, but its because of you that I am saved...So if thats worth anything, I wanna say thankyou, for giving to the Lord, you did something good. I will always be grateful to you.
lol this is a song I sang at the bars when I use to go to them...I thought of you when I did lol
this songs important to me because It reminds me of what I came out of and came through..
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Creep
Lyrics by Radiohead
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so very special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
he's running out again,
he's running out
he's run run run run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the / am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.
G
I couldn't Love you more - Lyrics by Matt Hammitt
http://youtu.be/7fSGIgkyguQ
"I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
Oh, but somebody does
Jesus..." - lyrics by Matt Hammitt
http://youtu.be/7fSGIgkyguQ
"I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
Oh, but somebody does
Jesus..." - lyrics by Matt Hammitt
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In my future
- By Lowanla (me)
- By Lowanla (me)
Why build new dreams if my dreams are still waiting for me in the future?
Why hold grudges when God commands me to forgive?
I forgave when I passed my unforgiveness to God to cast into the sea of forgetfulness.
in my future I will not marry the perfect Christian Guy...
In my future I will marry the imperfect man who will love me the rest of my life.
In my future my Love and I will grow up together still holding hands.
In my future this man will teach me how to be human and have compassion for others.
The man that deserves my heart is the man that pursues me for along time. That is the pearl of great price, that is the diamond in the rough.
That is the man I love, that is the man I want,
I'm happy with that man,
I'd rather be with that man I know, than the perfect man,
I am for happiness, I am for love.
S
Booyah!
thats because I am Lovesong ...I regret destroying my account, I could get it back but that may take me awhile. *sheepishly* DX
I tried to be all secretive but couldn't, now that I look back at it the way I returned sounded pretty lame haha.
thats because I am Lovesong ...I regret destroying my account, I could get it back but that may take me awhile. *sheepishly* DX
I tried to be all secretive but couldn't, now that I look back at it the way I returned sounded pretty lame haha.
lol @ "booya".
- Status