Lovesong Poetry

To err is human; to forgive, divine. - Alexander Pope

Look...
I know you have fears, I know you have your anxieties,
your jealousy, your anger, your sorrow and such..
I feel them, don't know why. Probably because I'm
bombarded with constant accusations on things I haven't
even done against you.

I've been getting this feeling you want me to fail you
so that you won't feel so bad about what you did or do.

I don't want to fail you, but I will, I'm not perfect.

You have this idea that you come to me for peace and life, like
I am God but I am not. I'm just a regular normal silly woman
in this world who WILL fail you. You already know this.

God is the only being in the universe who will love you the way
you want. He is the only one who forgives and
the sin is gone forever...no matter what it is!

I'm not sure if you know that...but its truth.
If you can imagine pure love unconditional without error,
perfection. A perfect love...fit for you. I'm just saying...
all it takes is a humble prayer and a real truthful outcry to him.

Its his presence you feel.

If he allows you to feel it from me,
I have a feeling he wants you to know HIS love.
He wants you to know the truth about your situation with him.
Maybe...there really is hope...everything has always been
about the choices we make in life, maybe he really is good
and his mercies do endure...forever.

I don't want to be chasing you around with a bible...

If I fail and fall, I want these things to be said first, because i know
I will never get the chance ever again to say them...
I know exactly what will happen to me...that is why I say as much as possible,
before it happens.

...I don't know how to put your heart at ease...I wish I could, I love you.

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You are valuable because you exist.
Not because of what you do or what you have done,
but simply because you are.
~Max Lucado Quote

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Spark of Life
by: Lowanla (me)

Forgive the spark of life
that rises from time to time
Its very hard to kill off and die
especially when surrounded by life
like the air we breath
it manages to come out of me
It is all I know the spark of life
I'm sure it shall pass away and be gone
and I die to become like
the hopeless one
with no spark of life in me
in order to make you happy

I still have not forgotten what I said
I still mean what I said,
To keep my word to you
what are values worth
if I don't honor my promises to you.
the spark of life is slowly fading
I throw my love to eternity
just to reach your heart
where there is no spark of life
but only the desire to be with you

soon the spark of life will just be
smoke rising from the candle
even if you don't come for me
if you say not a word to me,
I will sleep regardless on my own.
with the fading memory of
the spark of life
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Say The Word
by: Lowanla (me)

Where has the sun gone?
The cloud have veiled it
Would you leave me lonely
with distraught distressed heartache
now that you distanced yourself
I wither by the second
O love that fed me daily
a love I cannot live without
O decay that has rapidly increased
Life is fading painful and slowly
since you took your love away
I feel you still so close
chained away from me by the shame
say the word my love
and I would throw it all away
I would run to you, crawl to you,
fly to you, or die trying.
I was not alive until you came
and to know you feel the same
I am already dead anyway.

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To Lift Your Spirit
by: Lowanla (me)for my beloved

To set things right...

Fear is the eternal mask you embrace
put there by loves cruel song
to look upon your true face
many hearts fail and have fled away
but underneath the mask is a
handsome appearance that shines radiantly
your heart shines a glowing beauty
you are like me
wanting just to be loved
cursed, rejected, hurting always

You have romanced me with
the gift of illusion
Illusions are sweet reflections
from the great ocean waves
denial of the heart only causes pain
to bare an eternal ring
the wonders of freedom
the beauty choice
I can no longer deny you love

You have captured my heart
with illusion and in love we are
but you hate it its not who you are
do not take away my illusion
but do not take away you my truth
I love you
I become alive with you.
Anything you ask of me is yours
For you have captured my heart.
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I believe you
by: lowanla (me)

I know you love me
you don't have to prove anything..
I believe you.
I want you to be happy
I don't want to get in your way
The only thing that's really
suffering from me is my pride here
and you and I both know we
don't need my pride. What good does
pride do? Not too much.

I believe you, ..I know you are not lying.

I just hope that you believe me
and you realize that I am not lying either
when I stop writing you letters here..

I am so afraid to stop writing
because I'm afraid you will think
that I will stop loving you..

I will stop writing just so I can get out of your
way. I know I say this a lot but I hope
you can understand why I keep returning.

I will stop for you
I wish you the best and happiness,
I love you and goodbye

P.S. If I try to return to write may a tree fall on me
so that I am not able to write...I have all the luck with
trees. I hope one does I don't know why I
am allowed to get away with so much stuff...I love you.
-end-
​

Well that didn't last long...
I really didn't plan on returning but
I think I should make something clear.

I thought that this was what you wanted
Me not making such a scene
So nobody would know about me
I thought I was doing you a favor by just
Not saying anything at all..
I thought that you would be happy with how this is
Arranged. You don't seem all that happy. I wasn't either
This hurts but I'm trying to be understanding and supportive.

What do you want me to do...?

This is how you hear from me and how I can talk to you.
I'm sorry If I made you feel bad I thought that you
Wanted it this way.

​

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_ifCdMcWJk[/video]​

Hold On
Lyrics by: Tobey Mac​

Wake up to the morning light
wipe away the lonely nights
let a brand new day wash over you,
Wanna see you smile again
show some love to your crazy friends
wipe your tears away
those days are through​

If you move just a little bit closer you
can put your head on my shoulder
Yeah, yeah​

So baby hold on
just another day or two
I can see the clouds are
moving faster now
and the sun is breaking through
If you can hold on, to the one that's holding you
there is nothing that can
stop this crazy love
from breaking through​

We're breaking through
We're breaking through​

Wake up to the rising sun
thank the Lord for the
things He's done
lift your eyes up to the
hope that's ever true
Wanna see you smiling again
you're a light in this jaded world
wipe away those tears
this one's for you​

Come on, move a little bit closer,
you can put your head on my shoulder
Yeah, yeah​

And the stars are up there
shining for you
oh, the Father does adore you
His love will never change
And you and I
we were born to follow
the hope that will lead us to tomorrow
and no one can take it away​

So baby hold on
just another day or two
I can see the clouds are
moving faster now
and the sun is breaking through
If you could hold on
to the one that's holding you
there is nothing that can stop this crazy,
crazy love from breaking through​

You see the clouds are
moving faster now
the clouds are moving faster​

You see the clouds are
moving faster now
And the sun is breaking through​

We're breaking through​

in the midst of my dispair and troubles and hopelessness
I went to church...heard a message of hope by the Holy Spirit
I felt my father calling me home, giving me hope to stand again,
to believe in the impossible... He takes me back everytime...
this is my song or a song I relate to personally.
I become as dead...he breathes into me life, I live again, I die
I become as dead...he breathes into me life, I live again and so on.
By the grace of God go I.​

Take You Back
Lyrics by: Jeremy Camp​

The reason why I stand
The answer lies in you
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few
When I fall and bring your name down ​

But I have found in you
A heart that pleads forgiveness
Replacing all these thoughts
Of painful memories
But I know
That your response will always be ​

[Chorus]
I'll take you back always
And even when your fight is over now
Even when your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
And even when the pain is coming through
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back ​

You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm looking for
And I take all I can
And lay it down
Before the throne of endless grace, now
That radiates what's true ​

I'm in the only place
That erases all these faults
That have overtaken me
But I know
That your response will always be ​

[Repeat Chorus]​

I can only speak
With a grateful heart
As I'm pierced by this gift
Of your love ​

I will always bring an offering
I can never thank you enough ​

[Chorus Two]
You'll take me back always
And even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now
You'll take me back always
And even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through
You'll take me back always ​

Even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now ​

You'll take me back always ​

Even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through ​

You'll take me back​

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qGXOVPw4uU[/video]​

I know I seem like a despicable person
who constantly runs two and fro,
back and forth, like a flake or
like a chicken with my head cut off.
I never said I was the most perfect person.

I run back to God constantly because he is the only
being in the universe who I know
will have any kind of pity on me.
How many times have I turned my back on him
yet he still strives to believe in me
and keep me going.

I know this from experience.

He gives me peace when I have none.
He gives me wisdom when I need it.
no matter what anyone says...he does answers my prayers.
He has never chased me away when I came to him.

So that is why you see me putting up scriptures
and songs.

It must be that old
Spark of Life in me.

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Faith or Fate?
by: Lowanla (me)

Why so many words of death
spoken over us?
I think I want to say something
since you are still coming back
to me, like you still love me.
...I believe you do, and I love you too.

Let me try to say something
just because...
I don't want to live out
a hopeless story.

I believe in the midst of all
the impossibilities you and I
will find each other.
I believe that you and I will be
together the way you and I
want to be together.

The confusion and the fears are going
to be cut in half in you and
you shall see clearly and have more
peace more than you ever had known.

I speak life into our future,
I speak hope, I speak love, joy
for you and me.

I know I seem foolish to every eye upon me,

but as long as my God remains faithful...

I know he is going to do something great and mighty,
I know he will fulfill everyone of my needs.

I trust him...with my heart.
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Way out of Here
Out at the train tracks I dream of escape
But a song comes onto my iPod
And I realize it's getting late

I can't take the staring and the sympathy
And I don't like the questions,
"How do you feel?"
"How's it going in school?"
"Do you wanna talk about it?"

Way out, way out of here
Fade out,
Fade out, vanish

I'll try to forget you
And I know that I will
In a thousand years
Or maybe a week

I'll burn all your pictures
Cut out your face

The shutters are down and the curtains are closed
And I've covered my tracks
Disposed of the car

And I'll try to forget even your name
And the way that you look when you're sleeping,
And dreaming of this

Way out, way out of here
Fade out,
Fade out, vanish

Survivor
by: Lowanla (me)

The best revenge to those who strive to drain me, have stolen
from me, who lied to me, who raped me, who hurt me,
who break my heart, despitefully use me, who cheat me,
and kicked me down, who truly despised and hated me

They don't have what I have, to know what it means
to truly love somebody, or even know or fathom the meaning of love,
and to forgive, an inner strength that causes me to get back up and live with
whatever garbage I am left with. One mans x is another mans
treasure.

This is something that will always torment them, and eat away
at them like an itch or a virus, because I will be the constant sole
reminder, that no matter how hard they tried, they could not kill me
I always got back up because like my ancestors
I am a survivor.

The best revenge is to get back up, to smile again,
the best revenge is not violence, for hate only feeds hate,
and self pity gives them a sick joy in their hearts so I do not
feel sorry for myself..

no...

the best revenge is for me is to be happy
the best revenge is to move on,
the best revenge is to live.
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Blessings
Lyrics by: Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

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