I don't know you, but from what you have written here, you're someone who wants to be in a relationship, but are hurting because you haven't found one yet. Hurt often expresses itself as anger. We want to change people but we can't and no matter what we do we can't seem to become what they want. So it seems the only way we can assert any kind of control over the situation is to be angry. I'm sorry you are going through this, but I'd like to point out that as a Christian you do have a relationship with Jesus. Jesus knows what rejection is all about. John 1:11 (NKJV) says "He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him.". Isaiah 53:2-3 (NIV) tells us: "He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.". Jesus is God, but He was also human and He experienced emotions like we do. He loved people and when they didn't love Him, it hurt. Shortly before His crucifixion, Jesus looked over the city of Jerusalem knowing that He would very soon be betrayed, mocked and put to death by these same people. He said "Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing." (Luke 13:34 NIV). He wanted to have a relationship with them, but they were not willing. As we all know, it takes two willing parties to have a relationship. I would encourage you to bring the hurt that is behind the anger to Jesus. He understands rejection and He loves you unconditionally. God bless you!