Ok..you have stated the real facts here that you face daily. What next? What of tomorrow? JESUS came to give us LIFE, and more abundantly, starting NOW. His love, joy, power and so much more is there for the use, for the asking..and totally FREE.....no other can offer such a bargain..however, are you holding back, based on 'feelings" or "emotions" or "bipolism" or "meds" or "oh me oh my, I just don't have it in me today" attitude? What gives? Do you, or do you NOT believe and activate what the COMFORTER has in store for us, and you, PERSONALLY? How can you be an effective witness and reflection of JESUS CHRIST to others if you 'isolate" yourself and let depression RULE? Greater is HE (JESUS, the Holy SPIRIT, GOD) that is in YOU than he (satan, his co-horts, his lies, his personal attacks on you) that is in the world!!!! Do you believe that, or does it just look good on paper? When you join others with the same condition, it does not make you stronger, it simply multiplies the "WOAH is me" condition. Why not try surrounding yourself with a holy spirit filled local church congregation, where the BIBLE is not only taught, but lived. Depressive spirits together makes it worse..but Depressive spirit, mixed with Holy SPIRIT, sends the depressive spirit running to where it came back from.