I suppose that your first name is Luke so I hope you don't mind me calling you such. I would like to encourage you to continue in your search for truth no matter where you find yourself! Though, I must admit, I do hope you find Christianity as your ultimate home--I wouldn't be much of one if I didn't! I also thank you for your outreach to find truth in a place in which you should be able to go and inquire Christianity; namely a gathering place of Christians! Finally, I would like to apologize on behalf of some of the posters in this forum for their responses. I implore you to please forgive them, for they ought to know better!
I'm not a big forum guy, so forgive my late responses in the future. I'm usually on the chat, so if you want to talk there too, I welcome you to do so! Having said all that, let's move on.
I want to be clear, I do not question your motives on this site, but I do have some inquiries about your personal journey of seeking truth.
1) Other than Christian chat/forums such as this one, where else have you searched for answers to your inquiries?
2) Are you familiar with apologetics?
3) Through your ten year pursuit of investigating whether or not Christianity is true, have you encountered the works submitted by Alvin Plantinga (who deals with the logical problem of evil, relation between science and religion, and most known for his argument against naturalism), N.T Wright (who has written on many books concerning Jesus and his resurrection, J.P. Moreland (who is a jack of all trades, so to speak), Richard Swinburne (a renound Christian philosopher who deals with the existence of God, morality, etc), William Lane Craig (who is quite popular among Christians and uses similar arguments throughout his career), Gary Habermas (who specializes specifically with the resurrection of Jesus), and many more!
I suppose, after you have answered these questions, we can begin discussing what you disagree with regarding some of these men's work in philosophy of religion, philosophy, science; so on and so fourth. I look forward to discussing with you these things, though, I am not well versed in science. My hope is that you can educate not only me, but perhaps other viewers of this post!
High regards,
Brandon