Hello everyone. I don't know how to put this in my best words but I've been looking for ways to meet others online. All my life, I have struggled to connect with people and build meaningful relationships. I'm extremely apathetic and I also suffer from social anxiety. From my date of birth to the time we are in now, I feel like our world has been headed on this one way trajectory where days are only getting darker and more sinister. And as a Christian it seems like we've come up to a crossroad. That is that we must decide between following God or following the world and there's no room to be flexible. I never considered myself to be a fundamentalist or anything of the sort, but as morality in our society continued to deteriorate, I noticed that I was beginning to stand out more and I had to make a decision on which life I was going to live. I chose God. Since then, it's so difficult to associate with worldly people and to see how this toxic culture dictates their thoughts and actions. It's only getting worse. They don't respect you and they don't care about your feelings. Bad company corrupts good character but good company doesn't seem to dignify bad character. I can't be myself anymore knowing they won't accept me. It's made me feel very isolated and depressed. I refuse to fit in but i'm so alone. Where did the good people go? I see the remnants in people who are decades older than my self but my generation is hopeless. Writing this is hard enough when i'm overwhelmed by apathy. I just feel like i'm losing my life one day at a time. What is there left to do?