I lived life all wrong, in ways that measure only but hurt. I was mad at my family, at life.
I was mad because I have always wanted to be loved by the people who mattered the most to me.
All I ever did was push them away. Yeah we do not get along all the time, that is because of major differences.
One brother can not stand God, one Christmas a song about Jesus came on he changed it.
Other brother, i dont know he jusy has alot of hate but i dont know why. Maybe because he is not the only child anymore and maybe thats why he used to knock me around all the time.
The other brother? Hmm well thats indifferent. He is just idk there and can be cruel tk my sister n law by making her cry over stupid stuff which made her get darker and mean.
My sister amanda? She buddhist and a pure nature person. We have one thing in common, nature. But i love her even tho our views are very different.
My sister julie? The best friend and sister by blood, and by Christ. Her love for God has a huge meaning and i wish one day i can be just like her.
Mom? Struggled bad, she faught to keep all six of us together. And she did that until julie ran away. That hurt me and made me feel ao alone. Mom blamed me and my sister for the way our brother was. I get that but it really was not our fault. At times parents stick up more flr their fist instead kd their last.
Me? A loner, i always walked and liatened to musc. I have been molded and fashioned into the writter i am today. And in hopes one day i can write along side of my wife (when God puts her in my life) and help change peoples lives for the good of human kind. I lived the way i lived for a reason, my whole life has been one big test,
The teacher is ALWAYS silent durring that test.