Are you saved? I have so tried so hard before I knew the Lord to fill my life with things that only the the indwelling of the Holy Spirit can fulfill looking for peace and meaning. I have tried so many routes of spirituality and "works," until I sincerely let the world and all it had to offer just weary me out, when all I wanted was to find something that was true and sure. After I got saved, the Holy Spirit showed me that all those things that I had surrounded myself with was just idle "clatter" that I used to fill that void.
I suppose that sometimes the biggest challenge is to take things a day at a time. You never know what God has in plan for you if you trust in Him.
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths (Pro 3:5-6).
You never really know where God will lead you if you have sought refuge in Him (Ru 2:12). I am amazed of what He is doing in my life now, and it may not be so great according to the world's standards, but He in His omniscience, He really surprises me the way He has given me the desires of my heart (Ps37:4) because His plans are so much greater than I would have ever imagined (Je 29:11). After all He, is the one that made me (Je 1:5). The greatest blessing is the joy of knowing Him and being free from everything that I was bound to in the world.
There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit (Ro 8:1)
Knowing that, it helps me lay hold of promises such as Ro 8:28, even when everything around me seems to be falling apart:
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.