My short story

I live in California.. Downtown Los Angeles at The midnight Mission... I'm struggling in my faith... I was born in New Jersey at Washington Township hospital in Turnerseville NJ. I grow up in a broken home.... Although I love my Mother and Father its sad to say that they wasn't their for me or my sister... Although my Mother and Father both held down Jobs.
They both had bad additions,my mother was battling with drugs, and my Father was battling with alcohol. He was very abusive to my mother, that is what made her leave the house and be gone for months at a time....well needless to say me and my sister both ended up in foster homes well I'll stop their you can see where this story goes.... Fast forward, I grow up feeling worthless and unwanted... And even dirty with identity issues because of my childhood abuse.
And that lead me down a lonely dark and twisted road that lead to drugs, alcohol, jails and even prison, pornography just keeping it 100% real I haven't seen or heard from my family in over 20years plus... And through my additions I've gone in and out of rehab and also Christian homes... Even though it sure seems like people have given up on me... I still believe that GOD has never given up on me.... Even when I gave up on myself..... Jesus was and still their for me... I even had people tell me that I should just give up,basically on life because maybe in their mind they thought that life gave me a bad hand and some probably thought that GOD through the book at me.... I don't believe that.
I'm 39years old my sister is 41years old we are two Years apart... I miss her really bad. I'm still not perfect but that's ok, all I know how to do is fight... Life sure is tough, so who ever reads this pray that my sister is alive and well. And that she is treated like the Queen that God created her to be... Also pray for my niece that she will find her place in this cold hearted world.. But most of all that she will be drawn to Jesus. Lastly pray for my father.... That he will be blessed that he would find Jesus.... Well thank you for reading this...I also pray for the readers who read this that GOD will strengthen yours faith,and deepen your hearts to Grow and love each other..... In Jesus Name I PRAY AMEN

Hi...
God is our Father who brings beauty out from the ashes...
He is our God who closes doors and opens doors...
He is our God who heals our broken hearts...

May you find comfort in Him , and sit at our Lords feet , just like Mary did , and hear the voice of our Lord saying " Come to me , and I will give you rest "
Praying for you right now...
...xox...

Thank you James. You are truly a blessing to all of us. I would like to pray with you and for you and your family. Welcome to our family, brother.

Welcome to CC. Thank you for sharing your very traumatic story. My heart goes out to you. I thank and praise The Lord that He found you and you accepted Him as your Saviour.
You have had a lot of challenges but you can't fail if you keep on clinging on to Him.
There are times when most of us struggle with our faith in one way or another. Don't get discouraged, just pray and tell God how you feel, ask Him to help you.
I am so glad you joined here. Stick around. I will be praying for you and your family.
May God send you many blessings.

Thank you for sharing and for the prayer ❤ Continue the good fight 😇

One day you will going to see your sister again 🤗 praying for your father and your family 🙏🏼

Welcome to CC! God bless you ❤

You may find this thread (<- link) helpful

The OP of that thread is also in the LA area...

Welcome to the fellowship here at CC! I can relate to your story in a different way, my brother robbed me of over 200,000+ inheritance plus any keepsakes. So I've forgiven him but don't have to socialize w/him. God has been faithful to supply all our needssince. God bless you and I will say a prayer for your family!

Thank you, you all are Angeles to me it feels really good to know that I have brothers and wonderful sisters that care so much for me. Also thank you Magenta for the awesome praise and your worship songs with the lyrics... I was going through some things, and I was able to get my worship on. And that really put the enemy in its place so thank you much..... Also I've been having dreams that I was smoking meth. And I don't want to use or get high because I understand and realize that it's not what I want to do any more I just want to worship THE MOST HIGH GOD and be a blessing to you all...
I'm scared because the last time I had a dream that I remake, a few weeks after that I actually did and I ruined my sobriety so please pray for me because, just like GOD's word in (James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that he may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. And I also pray for the people to continue in the fight, and no matter what is going on in our life lets all not give up because together with the help of GOD we can stand up against the enemy. In JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN HALLELUJAH!!!

OK... I'm straight telling u... this post is going to get me "shot" metaphorically speaking. ..but I had a chance to visit "Cali" recently, and for those who havent visited... or those who had a safehaven of family... that place has gone strait crazy. I thought Oklahoma was bad, till I went to Cali... and everything around me w/regard to people just scared the crud out of me and my son. We were both like.... "what in the world is going on w/these people????" I say to you, get out of there! Find a home w/out so many crazy ppl around... That would be my plan. I mean, do what u want. ... but I was totally grossed out by that land. And you can hate me for it, but I do think there are better places for you in this world... in my best Christian advisement. Like it or not... that's what I think, sweetie! Find some country dwelling, perhaps, someplace, where innocense has a chance to exist... and then love it! Best wishes!

I'm in Cali 5 miles away from my Church, Harvest Christian Center, where every Sunday we bring hundreds of souls to Jesus through broadcasts also. Our Pastor said recently he wouldn't move out of CA, he's staying. Idk where you landed but it's really quite civilized here.

Oh it was sacramento for the most part, but there was another place... had "eagle" in the name but it did not seem to be "Godly" eagle's...... and my uncle came from San Jose... came out of it as a crazy cali... and when we traversed the coast, it was a scary lot. But if you found a good locale. Great for ya. and God bless ya!

I spent a week in downtown Los Angeles in 1972 at the age of 17. Stayed in a flop called the King Cecil Hotel. You have definitely have traveled down a rough patch of road. I will indeed say a prayer for the safety and well-being of your sister and for you as well. I will pray for your niece and father too. You are correct in saying that this is a cold hearted world but there are a few that bring a little sunshine to those dark places. We all have a story and thank you for sharing part of yours. Glad to have you as part of our family. Welcome to CC.

Never done meth, but to you this may mean nothing... unless u can figure that as much as u don't want to do meth... i dont want to smoke weed... alas, i can go months, but then sometimes that lust for "tranquility" sneaks back in... so i can kind of get... that there is something driving you back to meth... have u ever thought of placing a bet.... people think wagering is against God... but I never read that in the bible.... and Jesus said not to make new rules.... so then maybe we wager in a gaming and friendly way... I'll wager a "no fee' lol.... just a wager... that I can adhere from weed... which is "readily" available in most states and u adhere for your curse.,.. which seems to be meth.
Yeah, you can say urs is more addictive.. but how would i know. and I'll just sit here ignorantly being a support... your choice... if it means nothing to ya... then no worries... but sometimes any support is good support... and it's all i got... plus i don't wanna even smoke weed.... so let me know? will pray for ya regardless. Good luck!~

There's many ministries in Sacramento also, lol.

(Hey thank you for your support, it does mean a lot to me just because you have never done hard drugs, it doesn't mean that you don't understand. Because you do. We all have been through a lot of pain and suffering in this life.... Thank you so very much for your prayers ,because they mean so much to me🙂

(Thank you very much Shanty for your prayers and love that you send my way, it really means a lot to me, thank you for uplifting me in encouraging me to stand strong in my faith, you are truly awesome... I also pray that you and your family stay safe and healthy I pray mega blessings over your whole family. In JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN HALLELUJAH🙂

Thank you for your loving support, and your welcome I needed to share it because I need spiritual guidance. And if it is in GOD's will, I will continue in the fight. Because I already tasted and seen that GOD IS GOOD🙂

Take heart dear friend, you are on your way home. You have a beautiful heart and God loves you. So do I.
Thank you for your prayers and kind words. I will be praying for you.

God bless you Loyalth, and I will be happy to pray for you and your family and their salvation. Stay the course and strong in the Faith!