about to give up

I'm about to lose what little faith I have left in God. I haven't always been faithful, I'll be the first to admit, but I have been trying to have a relationship and put my faith into God and it hasn't gone anywhere. To be quite honest, my life wasn't too bad until I started praying. Since then... just falling apart! I'm sure people will say "just have faith", or "keep praying" or "I'm doing this wrong" but I really don't want to hear that anymore. I don't know anymore but I'm pretty sure I'm at the end of my rope here.

I will pray for you. Things don't always go well but don't blame God. He loved you so much He died for you. The devil would love for you to think that everything is God's fault. Reading the Bible would help you see that God loves you and wants to bless you.

JC ......I'm very sorry you're going through such a rough time. Can you clarify your "end of rope?"
Can you... ask God to hang on to you? He knows your struggling. If you can... read your post to Him.
If you can....talk to Jesus like you talk to a best friend.

Have been in similar shoes... I am praying for you!!!! I'm asking God to hang on to you, to let you know HE is there!!!

I know that feeling very well. and im just gonna tell you know its not even worth giving up the only one you can trust and the only one that can save you....just saying. Sometimes its best to ignore emotions and press on

Sit in a quiet place and tune in to your senses. Choose one: the father, Jesus, or the HS. See them with you. Feel their presence. Hear them. What is He doing? What are you doing? How do you feel? Sit in His presence if you can. Just sit. You don't need to ask or tell. Just it.
Many Christians are "just do it" Christians. The problem is that "just do it" is unwise and ungracious. You don't go to a drug addict and say "just don't do drugs."

Thanks everyone for the replies. I know I shouldn't blame God for things going wrong but I just want to know he's there. Faith is hard, really hard.. and that's something I am learning. I've always been wanting to have God in my life, I have had a rough life growing up. I finally got away from it all and did pretty good for myself and I never asked God for help. I feel like I did it on my own. Every now and again I'll crack open the bible and want to read and learn.. so I can connect but I never get that feeling and end up putting it off. I started really wanting to devote my life to God and live my life that way but ever since I started praying and trying it seems like I'm hit with one bad thing after another. What I meant by the "end of my rope" is that I feel like I am really giving up hope. I'm starting to not care about anything anymore and worse off I'm starting to get mad at God. I've never really done that but now I just want him to know that I feel like he's not there for me and not by my side when I need him. I can't remember how many times I've asked to be saved, I do it all the time now. I want to really try and live a better life. I want to have good Christian friends but that seems hard to come by.

Jordache.. I agree with what you are saying. I saw a lot of "just do it" Christians when I did go to church. I see it a lot of that around my family and friends. I'm tired of it. I just want to know he is there. I know I won't get proof but it seems to me that true Christians really know that God is there for them and their faith is very powerful. I want to feel that. I want to have faith that strong where I turn to God for everything. I've just never had it. I want to feel like a Christian.

God is faithful to answer those prayers. And we all have to learn to trust God and His truth able and far beyond our feelings. It's easy to know. It's hard to do. And it's impossible to do in our own strength. We need Gods grace to be our strength. God knows we are but dust and He doesn't hold it against us. We need to believe truth. We need to speak it. I'm horrible at this, but I'm better than I used to be.
God is faithful. And he began a good work in you that he WILL perfect, and he IS perfecting. He is working in your life even now.

Reading the bible is a good way to connect, not because of what you do, but because it opens the door in so many good ways for God to come to you.
Being broken is the place we all have been, simply because, it is when we no longer about what we do, but all about what Jesus does in us, that we bein to see His presance and glory.
You are in my prayers in Jesus, for the peace and streangth you need.

God bless
pickles

Consider you are being strengthened my friend.

Pray for strength, guidance and comfort.

Peace and Blessings in the name of Yahvah God and Yahshua the Messiah.

Dear child, how the Lord loves you! see how He clings to you, even when you want to give up! This is no coincidence, beloved. It is real.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 NASB
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. KJV

Faith is what you seek, and this verse tells us it is very real. Substance is something tangible, and evidence is proof! Hebrews 10: 35 tells us not to throw away our confidence. You have asked the Lord Jesus to save you--now believe He did, child! I believe the evidence and substance you seek will be found in the Word of God. So I, too, adjure you to read this letter of love from your Father in heaven to you. There you will find the proof you need. He will be found by those who diligently seek Him, dearest.
I say this not to criticize you. Far from it! Who among us was not at the point you are at some point? I know I have been there, and not just once. You say you haven't always been faithful, and I know that feeling very well. But He has, is, and will always remain faithful. It's against His very nature to do otherwise. For this reason you have these longings, and for this reason (His faithfulness) you seek prayer for this. I hope you can see this, dear one.
He is calling to you, His own dear child. He wants you; please believe that!

Seek His face, and spend much time with Him in prayer, in listening, and in the Word. I always ask Him to open my (spiritual) eyes to His Truth and to what He wants to teach me before I read the Bible. I don't know if that will help you, but I sorta feel it can't hurt!
I pray I haven't hurt you, child!! I guess I'm trying to tell you of my own experience in this desert you're in. I found there was water for me (God!) but I had to be faithful in looking for it.(don't mean to sound like a "do it" Christian, just that we do have some responsibilities in our relationship with the Lord, just as we do in any relationship, right?)

Don't give up, beloved of your Father. He knows you. He loves you. He waits for you. He hangs on to you, even when you feel you have no strength to do so yourself. I have sought the Lord on your behalf, my dear, and I will continue to do so. I look forward to the day when you return to tell us about the wonderful things that will happen.
I'm sorry you feel this way, and I do weep with you. At the end of the rope isn't too bad a place to be, for underneath are the everlasting arms. ♥
The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms Deuteronomy 33:27

in Christian love,
ellie

Having faith is never easy....even the demons "believe", or know that Jesus is the Son of God and still they reject Him.

This tells us that there is something more involved in having a strong faith than just "believing".

It was rather a surprise to me to learn as an older Christian that I would have to fight for my faith. Satan and his helpers working in this world will do all they can to take it from you. DON'T LET THEM.

They will go into your nicely planted garden and try to rip out the healthy plants. They will sow weeds in your garden that will quickly over-top and strangle out God's words. Everyone who has planted a vegetable garden knows about weeds....they will survive drought, they will grow faster than your bean plants, they will laugh in your face when you're out there sweating gallons as you dig them up by their nasty, extremely intricate, root systems.

How do we fight for our faith? By praying for the supernatural power from the Holy Spirit to hold on to it and to grow it; and sometimes to ask for it back .

You may find there is a part of you that is fighting this...you'll need to pray for help in getting rid of that. If you find yourself reluctant to open the Bible, that means you really need to do it.

I spent two years in the doldrums of lost faith because I let bitterness and resentment take root in my soul. It took a long time and a lot of re-tilling of my soul for God's seeds to grow again in me. But because I repented (this took awhile) and told God to do whatever was needed to get me back on the right track, to please do it. I gave him permission ....this wasn't easy because there was still a part of me in rebellion against Him.

Remember that Satan will do all he can to destroy your faith...so if things have gotten harder for you, you may be under spiritual attack. Don't let yourself say "if God really loved me He would protect me from this". Trials and sufferings will 'perfect' our faith IF we respond the way God wants us to.

Praying for strength and guidance for you ...hang in there; things worth fighting for are never 'easy'

jc84 said:

I'm about to lose what little faith I have left in God. I haven't always been faithful, I'll be the first to admit, but I have been trying to have a relationship and put my faith into God and it hasn't gone anywhere. To be quite honest, my life wasn't too bad until I started praying. Since then... just falling apart! I'm sure people will say "just have faith", or "keep praying" or "I'm doing this wrong" but I really don't want to hear that anymore. I don't know anymore but I'm pretty sure I'm at the end of my rope here.

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I am praying for you now, and this may be where God has you in your life, I know this may sound strange, but unless you come to the end of self as the prodigal did, and seek the mercy of God in real repentance and brokenness, then you will flounder between fear, doubt, and uncertainty!

Remember, God doesnt condone sin in our lives, and demands all come to repentance, but is long suffering with you, He will not answer the prayers of the ungodly or double minded, but does pour out His goodness and His displeasure with the righteous and the disobedient, He is no respecter of persons.

Satan wants you to feel alone and defeated, and will do all he can to discourage you, but God will not do it all for you, you must lay aside all filthyness and wickedness, and receive with meekness His implanted word(truth), and be a doer of His word, dont fall for the passive faith Gospel that tells you to do nothing, God does it all, and your behavior has no effect on His love for you, God's angry with the wicked every day.

But you must come broken before Him, contrite, and must do everything in your life to choose whom you will serve!

As long as you are holding onto your pet sins, and the love OF the world,God will wait patiently for you to take that obedient step of faith in Him, in humble repentance!

Jesus said the road is narrow, few will find it,He said depart from iniquity, stand fast, endure to the end, obey my commands, seek first my kingdom and righteousness, read the beatitudes, they teache what heart purity is all about, Jesus doesnt demand sinless perfection, but a heart made pure through faith(obedience) that can only come from repentance and faith all proven by deeds!

God said if you seek Him with all your heart, and with diligence, He will reward you, our relationship with God isn't passive, just sit back and hope He does something, no we must do our part, come clean before Him, in all areas of our life, with all our faults and imperfections, but the sins of the flesh must stop as we fall at His feet as the woman caught in adultery did, giving all we have to Him, and crucifying our flesh with Him through repentance first, thus proving to Him we mean business, and have counted the cost.

If you are still in bondage to sin, and the love of the world, and attending a church that teaches against repentance and faith, then you will be struggling along, as God waits patiently for you to do your first works and repent.

He is a God of love, compassion and mercy, but also a God of judgement, calling His beloved creation out of thier sins, by coming clean before Him in repentance, then if real and seeking His great mercy,with a broken heart, now ready to receive His spirit and be guided into all truth and godliness!

Mat 11:28 Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Mat 11:29 Take My yoke on you and learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you shall find rest to your souls.
Mat 11:30 For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.

Jesus gives us all we need to come to Him, obey Him, and rest in His strength, but He will not do it for you, He is humbly asking you to come to Him on His terms, follow and obey Him, which is easy and light, as you take up your cross daily, deny self, and follow Him!

PS,, you must also guard your heart as most professing Christians do not, and wonder why they live a defeated life!

They live as the world, put evil things in thier minds, and watch all the evil TV and movies the world does, along with all they love to read filled with witchcraft, sex, violence, and godless propaganda, no wonder they cannot find peace with God!

We do our part and God will do His! But it comes with a high price, few are willing to pay!

be patient man...sometimes u got to be down before u can look up...God wants all of ur attention. keep praying and i will pray for u to

Hi JC.. Do you believe that God brought you here to CC? You're reaching out for Truth., He's reaching out for you. (God is truth)
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Hi JC, I sometimes don't understand how God works but I know his heart. Hang in there a little longer and allow the Holy Spirit to do the rest. In time, you will understand his plan . His plan is always good . Blessings

Yes, been there... sometimes what we pray for... is not what God wants for us. Though we think it is the right thing. Sometimes we dont know God enough ourselves..

But God does know us.

`Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! - Psalm 27.

Trust in Him and wait. Pray, with no need for words, but just listen and enter His peace.. That God may speak to your heart, mind.

God did not redeem us to be on our own. He redeemed us and made us a member of His body, took us by His very own hand and placed us in Christ. That is true for you at this very moment and what we do is reckon on that truth by faith knowing that it is impossible for God to lie or to be unfaithful to those He has purchased with the blood of His Son. We all have been sealed in God's salvation through the Holy Spirit that was given to us when we first believed.

The Holy Spirit will guide us into all truth concerning Christ and His body. The body of Christ is made up of all the believers that have trusted and called upon the name of the Lord for salvation and every one of them Christ indwells through the Spirit. Each one of us is called by God through His precious grace to have fellowship with Him through the word, through the Spirit and through the fellowship of other believers of His body. This is so very vital and is how we get to know and grow up in Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour and friend.

In a local assembly that God has called believers to have fellowship, the word of God is taught so that we can know God's thoughts toward us and what He is like so that we can have a personal fellowship with Him and with the other believers or members of His body. In this fellowship we begin to understand the love that God has for us and we experience that love when the Holy Spirit fills our hearts with that love and we are able to express that love toward others, the same way God has expressed it toward us. This love builds us up and gives us confidence in the truth that we belong to Him and that he will never leave us or forsake us no matter what we go through.

Christ will always be the Shepherd of our souls and He loves us with an everlasting love. If we fail or fall into sin God will not condemn us but will be gracious and forgive us and will make us stand in that grace. If we make mistakes and our heart condemns us, that love He has for us will cover us so that we can grow in Him without having guilt controlling our lives and we can be free to worship and praise Him for all that He is and for all that he has done for us. Being in the midst of a people who have received His love and are growing in the grace of that love is the greatest kind of fellowship we can have with our Lord, because He is in the midst of those believers rejoicing over them as their Lord.

We will pray that God will put you in a local assembly where you can grow and have that kind of fellowship. If there is anyone out there that can help her and give her information of a faithful local assembly of believers, send her a PM. Until then you can trust God that many of us here on this site are members of Christ's body and have fellowship with Him and will give you the same love that God is and has given unto us, so that you can keep yourself and be edified in that love.

I agree with the other posts...
But would like to say...
You said now that you started praying;
that is when all your trouble started.
That is good news!!!
Because your prayers have power...satan is bugging you...
PRESS ON! CLAIM WHO YOU ARE IN JESUS.
Don't forget praise! The enemy can't be around our praising and thanking God!
God Bless you and keep you...Love in Jesus, Shekaniah

Here are some verse too!


Ephesians 6:13
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

1 Peter 5:6
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

Isaiah 54:17
no weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is their vindication from me," declares the LORD.