Can't communicate right

I can't communicate right. i know how I feel inside but when I try to communicate it it comes out so wrong and people hate me. I get anxiety and it makes it even worse. Every time I want to die. I want to fix it when people are angry at me. I want to fix it so they aren't but onec people hate me that just keep hating and ther is no mercy and no forgiveness. It's just like they want me to die. So I want to die.

Psssst Sis...come here, let me hug you. I and others have been trying so hard to get you away from trying to find favor with men.

For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a bond-servant of Christ.
Galatians 1:10 NASB

I have told you that I get it, cuz I have found myself in ppl pleasing delimas too in my life. But sweetie, would you give me an example of something you'd say that would cause anyone to want you to die? What makes you think they want you to die?

People that you want to surround yourself with want you to rejoice in Him, loving Him and others. They won't expect you to always be happy but they won't want you always hurting either. They will pray for you, be real with you, help redirect your thoughts towards Him, and they will encourage you, because they genuinely care for you, only wanting the best for you. You want to be those things to others too. I pray you find peace, that He brings to you connections where all parties are blessed because they are Christ centered.

There is power in the name of Jesus when anxiety attacks say in Jesus name I believe in your name Lord. You love me and you don't want me to live a life full of fear Replace the lies of the enemy with your truth and love. I believe you are here beside me and I am not alone. You care for me and you will not leave by my side.



I do this sis when life feels like hopeless and I feel fear in my heart it gives me strength to carry on and face again another day with hope...I understand that what you are going through is different from mine...but we have the same God... a loving God a merciful God that hears that knows our struggles our pains our fears our worries...

Lord bless umzzaand this prayer. In Jesus name, Amen!

sister ,please ask professional help.Your posts are a cry for help.I will pray for you .hugs <3 love you

I know just how you feel. When I was a kid, teen and into my early 30s. I felt the same like I had all these big thoughts and ideas. Things I wanted to say, but either they didn’t come out like I meant, or I just never got the chance as people would talk over me or weren’t interested.

I think people must have thought I was just stupid or something! I just hardly ever spoke and was very shy.

But then you know what things started to change when I decided I was no longer bothered what others thought of me.

I’m me and if someone doesn’t agree with me or like me, then that’s their problem. As long as I still retained a teachable soul and didn’t get stuck up thinking I was right all the time. That I was just as entitled to speak or have an opinion as the next person. So what if people laugh at my accent or slight lisp. So what if I forget names etc. So what if I get tongue tied at times. There are far worse things in life.

Oddly enough now I’m 50 and people can’t shut me up. Lol

It’s mostly about confidence. Have confidence in your self worth, who you are as a person. You are unique and no one else on planet earth can fill your boots in the same way as you can.

Lord we pray for Um that you will
give them the confidence to be who you made them to be. That you will bring out their talents and gifts and they will find favour among the circles they mix in. That most of all they will learn how special they are a child of God.

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And there's this. "Christian Suicide Resource" Search engine links.

Please don't leave your life. (hugging you) Don't play God by taking the life he gave you. Suicide is an eternal solution to a temporary problem. And when you're gone you leave behind endless depths of grief and guilt in those who love you. They will wonder how did they miss you were that unhappy? Why didn't they see the signs? Why didn't you talk to them? Why didn't they talk to you? Questions that will never have any answers because you're not there to help them.
And they will live on feeling guilty for not being there to help you.
Talk to someone you trust. You were born to make history. You are not a mistake. The people that don't understand you now are possibly not the people you were meant to communicate God's message with. Ever think of that? When you find the right people they'll understand and love you. Those who hold animus for you now are not them.

People that hate you are not people who are able to love you. What they think doesn't matter if they think of you from a place of hate. What a blessing they let you know not to waste another moment of your life with them. Keep it moving. The people who will cherish you are out there.
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Holding you in prayer.
God doesn't make mistakes. You are his miracle.

Hi umzza,

I'm sorry that happens when you talk with people face to face. Here altho i cannot read all your new posts and replies to you, do you experience it too?
Perhaps it's the people you happen to be dealing with, but many others are forgiving and merciful. I hope you do meet and get to know these people too, which the Lord will bring your way.
In our prayers still.