Feeling broken

I've felt very broken a lot here lately.. your not alnoe my friend.. praying for you.

I see you're new here, Harmony. Welcome to CC, brother. And I hope God works through you on this site and brings you some amazing people. Okay so I just got done praying. Not sure what I said came out the way I wanted it to. But with God being God of wonders, He knows what I thought and what I meant. Tomorrow is a new day, and I plan on spending it by applying for jobs and refreshing my resume with some help. Tomorrow night is also Celebrate Recovery at my church, which I'm looking forward to. Funny how people dread Mondays when Monday nights might probably be the best thing to happen to me. Thank you all for your wonderful insight and feedback. God definitely spoke through you all and I will take every post to heart. I will keep you posted on what happens. God bless you all, and have a great night!

In 2Kings 4 - Elisha talked to a widow who was in financial need and he asked her what she had and she answered a little bit of olive oil. So he instructed her to go and borrow as many empty vessels she could and fill them with the oil and sell it for support for he family. I encourage you to read this story from the Bible.

Now why did I ask you to do this? I will ask you the question..... What talents do you have? I don't know your educational background or your work experience. But do you own a law mower? Or do you have a snow shovel? Again don't know where you are located.... My point is if a job is not coming to you make a job....ask if you could mow someone's lawn for money or shovel snow for money as you are in need of work and are willing to work.... Is there something you are good at that you start your own business? Maybe you need to be working for yourself and not someone else. I don't know the answers to these questions but you do. Do you have a car? Let the Pastor of your church know you'd be willing to take someone to Dr. apt or to the store that is elderly or go do their grocery shopping to make some money. Just thoughts to try and fill in the gaps while you are looking for a job that might help you feel a little more independent from your dad. Praying that you will find work soon.

Post note....I was a single mom and there were times I had to clean houses besides my regular day job just to keep groceries on the table and I also had yard sales to buy groceries....Sometimes you do whatever it takes to keep going and I prayed before I had those yard sales that God would send people to buy the things on the yard as He already knew we needed food.

Happy to report my daughter and I never went hungry. Praise God.

I have felt that way myself many times..

Most of my experience has been from the two jobs I had on campus at my university. One was as an assistant and the other was as the sports editor for our student newspaper. I got my bachelor's in psychology. But because places around here won't hire you without experience and at least a master's, and I still owe my school for lasylt year's tuition, I can't do anything with ot at the time being. I live in Florida so shoveling snow would be out of the question even though that would be great. I don't own a lawnmower. And I don't own a car and am unable to drive because of my vision, so I have to rely on using a bike for transportation.

Did you try freelancer sites? Sports editor experience is good, plus you have bachelor in psychology. You could write articles online and work like that for some site or company. Nowadays they use content to drive traffic to the site. The best way to succeed as a freelancer is if you have a niche. Pick something to focus on and you could try this? With experience and more jobs done your working price grows, too.

Would I be able to do this even though I don't own a computer and am unable to drive? As reporters you do have to travel to report. And the transportation here isn't very good.

I will give you the advice that someone gave me from the criminal justice field. This should work for most fields, but he said that criminal justice is a competitive field. If he was starting again, he would make his own blog, such as on google blogs and write about different topics in that field. Write about current events in the news that relate to your field, interview people from that field..... It would be possible to make a little money from this, although not much, but it would look good on a resume. He said if you did it with someone else, then when you got a job, you could hand it over to your friend. There are apps for these things if you are on a tablet or possibly a phone. It doesn't take that long if you are getting another job too.

You just need a computer. But you could buy a small notebook, that's relatively affordable, because you need to type and such, it's much easier and faster than using phone. That and internet connection is all you need for freelancing.

I'll look into it, then. Thanks for the suggestion.

So after a day of having one manager not show up for a walk-in interview. A restaraunt closed for the day. A labor force having me fill out an application and tell me they'll let me know if the job comes up but I'm "free to look for any other job". Sending my resume in an email but not realizing the email had a typo in it til after. And then a labor force handing me an application, telling me to come back tomorrow morning with it, only to be caught in the rain and having the application ruined from it... I have an interview Wednesday morning for a library customer service position. Some things you just can't really explain. Please pray everything goes well and I get the job if it's in God's will.

you at least have a sense to want to be responsible, something I never wanted to do growing up, I just wanted to be a free spirit, I told myself that I hope I never have to work and I prayed to God to come back early so it could be so. I think this selfish prayer is what may have messed me up the most, I lost all my passion, stop caring about doing anything really, gaming was the only thing I cared about for quite awhile. I enjoyed camping, playing sports, drawing, and a lot of other things, I now for the 1st time in my life don't want anything, I don't even care if I get a cake for my b-day this year, or even hear from someone happy b-day, I know my parents will tell me though and I thank God for that, even though my wants are finally dissolving in my life. I've even been battling an addiction of lust, don't want it anymore nor do I need it. I'm trying really hard to be happy only with Jesus, even though his wisdom is far too great I've been really trying now to read the bible with my heart instead of my brain. I read the entire bible with my brain but I've only been able to memorize 2 verses. I told myself time and time again Lord, what worth and my if I can barely memorize anything really, I'm really forgetful at times.

I pray you find peace in your heart.

Just give Him thanks. That's it. Thanks and trust and go about your day knowing He is in control.

Give God His recognition and thanks for it and He will go ahead of you.

Deuteronomy 31:8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Yeah I think you are really nice and very interesting person and just searching for a little peace of mind.

Psalm 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God.

By be still it literally means to be still, literally.
Humble yourself, clear your mind of all things and just chill for a minute.

Often God speaks in a tiny whisper.

And unless we're still we wont hear it.

We can all learn so so much from Psalm 46:10. Through even the most fiery testing times when pressure is all around us from all sides. God says, look; just be still and chill out and fear not; for I got this! And he even goes so far as to say be of good cheer! John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Remember, Christ has already won! We are now just waiting for Him to return and take us home where, God our Father will have lots and lots of work for you to do like galaxy building or something. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God has a future for you. He has one for all of us.

Praise God!

Just came home from an amazing ministry my church started called Celebrate Recovery and tonight someone said something that I'm going to start applying every day. There is no such thing as a bad day. There may be days that may have A LOT of bad moments. But in that day you could have probably the best cup of coffee you ever had. The point of his message was we need to stop focusing on the negative things, and focus on the positive. If the good thing was that you had that really great cup of coffee, then it was a good day. Today it was a good day because I got an interview. And I went to Celebrate Recovery tonight and heard an AMAZING sermon. And heard an AMAZING performance by the worship team. YOU, my brother, are so loved by God. The fact you posted what you struggle with shows AMAZING courage! You are worth a lot. I'm bad at memorizing things, so there are probably at most five verses in the entire Bible I know by heart. It's not about counting how many Bible verses we know by heart. The fact you're reading God's Word is HUGE! That's awesome! Continue going to Him for your every thought! Don't beat yourself up! I know addiction is a horrible thing. I have struggled and fallen back into it over and over and over and over again. Even after I just fall down and throw my hands up and cry to God saying please God get rid of this. Help me! Brother this is a VERY long marathon, and it doesn't happen over night. Continue putting your faith in Christ. Know that God is ALWAYS with you, and there is NOTHING you can do that can rid you of His gracious love for you. I will be praying for you!

there was another weird thing I was coming back to say earlier but I forgot it, maybe for the better, if I remember I might post it. but yeah, courage was the one thing I never really had, at least not talking with others, I for some reason never did like my voice, maybe if there was a human chop shop I could trade it in or something.

anyone else thought they could trade something about them?

Lord, heal this persons heart and spirit in Jesus Name. God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea. —Psalm 46:1-2

God knows your heart and mind,
May he direct you in his perfect wisdom.
In Jesus name amen

Hello young brother.....been reading this thread.....a lot of support for you.....nice.....
I think I might have something to help you.......
Most companies ask the question...why do you want to work here....and believe it or not...
Its the main reason they chose you.....the most important question in the interview....
So each interview be prepared for that question.......the key to your answer should include the
benefits you will be on the company........for instance.....I would like to work here...because I believed in your product......or I use this all the time.....in other words think of how you personnaly can make
their business better......thats what they are looking for in your answer......
Make a job out of finding a job.....get up get dressed.....and start applying on line.....prepare now for taking the steps to be on your own.....help around the house.....earn your keep....
But what you must always do is give it all to God.......
Did you know?????Jesus didn't start His ministry until the age of 30......He was preparing for it....
having people help you is what family is for.....but if your just laying around.....not contributing your
energy to helping the family with what you can do.....then and only then should you feel convicted....
God has His plan for you......use this time as Jesus did.....preparing yourself for success.....and in Gods time....when He feels your ready......your job will be better than you have ever dreamed......
Before your interview...thank God for the words you need to say.........and all will be well.....
your time is coming.....make the best of the journey..........peace .......jo

One thing you could start with is praising God that you have parents that understand your situation and are willing to help you out. They trust you, and realize you are not a freeloader.

You could praise God for health, for provision and for what God is going to do in your life.

You could praise God for dying on the cross for you, and that he has chosen you as his child.

I know this sounds difficult. You are obviously slipping into depression, as a result of the bad circumstances in your life. My thought is to read the book of Job. I am reading it right now, and it really does address your situation.

Finally, remember God is in control! If you don't have a job, God knows and understands. He is working something good in yoiur life!

"And we know God works all things together for good to those who love God and are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Praying that you are able to look up and praise God for all the good things, and especially that the right job comes your way!