I really don't think you should be exploring any relationship right now until you have healed from your past abusive relationship(s). The devil is going to tempt you in this area because he knows how badly you want to be in a relationship...be on alert!!! He's done this to me in the past and I ended up having to deal with a lot of unnecessary complications and hurt that could have avoided had I allowed myself to heal before jumping into another relationship. Please please please put the brakes on and take care of yourself right now. That is what is most important right now. I pray you will lean on the Lord for wisdom and guidance and He will send people into your life who can help you heal and give you wise counsel.