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My name is Naomi. I need Jesus but I just don't believe and don't have faith. I've prayed the prayer of salvation. I've tried to pray again too. I'de also like to add that I've done research; I'm terrified to convert. Here's the situation on my life its going to get personal so i'm sorry to those that this is about. I live with my parents. I live with my brother, my sister, and my brothers gf. My relationship with my brother was always humorous we got along. Now its crap. My sister and i share ingenuity. My brothers gf is always here and I straight up don't like her and its been 5 years! My mom and I get along but still there is some sadness or dissapointment. My dad and I get along but still distanced as well. Now some things I notice. My mom is optimistic calm and very reserved but in a good way. She is awesome and hardworking. My dad works hard and is very reserved but handles things well and lately he's been letting his guard down. My brother he is rational logical and deals his emotions well.. Hes always there for his gf and cares about her. He cares about money too. My sister is funny. My sister despite bad people she still is humble and p very nice and caring. My brothers gf is always bright and cares a and tries to have good relationships with the family and brothers gf. My brothers gf is always bright and cares about money. I think she cares about my brother too. She's responsive to and for her family. My family has been through a lot in their own lives and me a bit too. I will not discredit the hard times or give away that information here. I am still in highschool and will be done in three months. After that I have no plans other than to work for money and go to college. Honest I don't see a future. But though I feel like I can't or it'd be too hard or a form of abandonement I want to leave this house. Let me add that I have no friendships and my mind feels very unclear . Its been difficult getting any tasks done. But I don't want to be this way anymore. I understand I'm a sinner and I've tried to forgive but I myself haven't asked for forgiveness. I also want to mention something. Everywhere I'm at I hear these noises and others hear it too so its not completely mental illness. The noises sounds and feels its like for getting attention. "I'm right here". I call them demons what else could it be but long story short they follow me wherever I go and my prayer doesn't get rid of them so I ask for you all that care enough for this to please pray for me. I really don't want to be clouded by the "noises" anymore. There is so much more to this than I can type but with what I've given I ask for prayer please pray for me and my family and for the evil to please leave from me and my family and this home.