You know I find it to be pretty darn amazing that all of my fears and doubts and stress over this has deflated very much like a ballon. I am happy, optimistic, trusting, and just full of peace. Its like God has his hand over my mind (prayed and asked him to do that) I am pretty sure now that it was just the devil using my fears against me as a weapon. I don't even have distrust in my heart or my mind towards my mate anymore. Instead I look at him and I just love him. I think maybe my walk is suppose to be hard with this relationship and that I am not suppose to give up. I have complete faith and hope that God has my mate in the palm of his hand and that he is going to be the one that brings about the change in him. I have felt for the whole 6 years that I am suppose to be with him. I think that God has given me to him because Tom needed a woman to truly love him for all that he is. I have this unlimited amount of compassion and forgiveness in me and I am the type of woman that see's the bad things in a person as being what makes them uniquely themselves instead of judging them. I accept people for exactly the way they were made and do not expect them to change in order to love them or accept them and my mate has always needed that. So I'd like to ask all of you to pray for tom to get saved and for God to pick him up. For God to touch his heart and his mind and to release the anger inside of him. He is the one that really needs our prayers. Thank you so much everyone for your prayers. It made amazing changes happen inside of me.
