Thank you all for your kind words, encouragement and prayers. Yes, it has not been easy and there have been times I thought about pushing the self-preservation button.
Truth is that at the very moment your eyes passing these very words, people are dying while others are crying. Millions of souls in this world are slowly losing faith in their dreams and hopes such as a candle light flickering just before it’s final moments of forever being blown out.
There are some of us who are losing everything they ever loved, who are depressed beyond belief.
Is it because I am not hardworking? No it is not. I feel more depressed having giving my all on different projects and everything comes crumbling right in front of me and i couldn't do anything to help it. I prayed and begged God to help but nothing seem to work.
I feel like dying more of the time and then I get scared because of my love ones who I will make go through pains but then watching them suffer is something that breaks my heart to pieces. All my Life, I had believe in God but I hope you do understand what it means when He is your only hope and yet...
I can't type no more, but I will keep hanging in there. I won't lose my mind and go crazy. Thank you for the care.
God bless you all..
James 2:[SUP]5 [/SUP]Hearken, my beloved brethren, Hath not God chosen the poor of this world rich in faith, and heirs of the kingdom which he hath promised to them that love him?
Matthew 6:[SUP]24 [/SUP]No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.[SUP] 25 [/SUP]Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?[SUP] 26 [/SUP]Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?[SUP] 27 [/SUP]Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?[SUP] 28 [/SUP]And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:[SUP] 29 [/SUP]And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.[SUP] 30 [/SUP]Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?[SUP] 31 [/SUP]Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?[SUP] 32 [/SUP](For after all these things do the Gentiles seek
for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.[SUP] 33 [/SUP]But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.[SUP] 34 [/SUP]Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
1 Timothy 6:[SUP]5 [/SUP]Perverse disputings of men of corrupt minds, and destitute of the truth, supposing that gain is godliness: from such withdraw thyself. [SUP]6 [/SUP]But godliness with contentment is great gain. [SUP]7 [/SUP]For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. [SUP]8 [/SUP]And having food and raiment let us be therewith content. [SUP]9 [/SUP]But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition. [SUP]10 [/SUP]For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. [SUP]11 [/SUP]But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness. [SUP]12 [/SUP]Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses. [SUP]13 [/SUP]I give thee charge in the sight of God, who quickeneth all things, and before Christ Jesus, who before Pontius Pilate witnessed a good confession; [SUP]14 [/SUP]That thou keep this commandment without spot, unrebukable, until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ:
Philippians 4:[SUP]11 [/SUP]Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.[SUP]12 [/SUP]I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.[SUP] 13 [/SUP]I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Colossians 3:1If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.[SUP] 2 [/SUP]Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.[SUP] 3 [/SUP]For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.[SUP] 4 [/SUP]When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.[SUP] 5 [/SUP]Mortify therefore your members which are upon the earth; fornication, uncleanness, inordinate affection, evil concupiscence, and covetousness, which is idolatry:[SUP] 6 [/SUP]For which things' sake the wrath of God cometh on the children of disobedience:[SUP] 7 [/SUP]In the which ye also walked some time, when ye lived in them.[SUP] 8 [/SUP]But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth.[SUP] 9 [/SUP]Lie not one to another, seeing that ye have put off the old man with his deeds;[SUP] 10 [/SUP]And have put on the new man, which is renewed in knowledge after the image of him that created him:[SUP] 11 [/SUP]Where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcision nor uncircumcision, Barbarian, Scythian, bond nor free: but Christ is all, and in all.[SUP] 12 [/SUP]Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;[SUP] 13 [/SUP]Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.[SUP] 14 [/SUP]And above all these things put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness.[SUP] 15 [/SUP]And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.[SUP] 16 [/SUP]Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.[SUP] 17 [/SUP]And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.
It may be that the Lord is preparing you to not get so involved in the cares of this life that you will set your heart on the things above because the Bridegroom may be coming soon, and some believers will not want to go when it is time, because they love their lives on earth than the better everlasting one above.
Luke 21:[SUP]33 [/SUP]Heaven and earth shall pass away: but my words shall not pass away.[SUP] 34 [/SUP]And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares.[SUP] 35 [/SUP]For as a snare shall it come on all them that dwell on the face of the whole earth.[SUP] 36 [/SUP]Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.
Wait for Him. Place your hope on Him. Do not commit suicide for that would be like saying, "I did not trust you, Jesus, in taking care of me today." When you come face to face in light of eternity, wouldn't you rather have a story to tell others on how the Lord helped you through that ordeal?
Believe it or not, other believers have gone through what you are going through and some have gone through worse. For those that just give up on life and say, "Here, Jesus. Do what You will with it. I am done worrying about it." You may be amaze at what He does to get you through each and every day.
I know I am. I am going through a different situation, and I wish I was dead and had departed to be with my Lord Jesus Christ, but if He still has me here, then it must be to His glory or to the furtherance of the gospel or just plain giving me something else to praise Him for in Heaven when He comes for me.
1 Corinthians 9:[SUP]22 [/SUP]To the weak became I as weak, that I might gain the weak: I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some.[SUP]23 [/SUP]And this I do for the gospel's sake, that I might be partaker thereof with you.
It's easy in the eyes of the sick & the dying for healthy christians to bear witness to the sick & dying of their faith in Him just as it is easy in the eyes of the poor for the well to do christians to bear witness to the poor of their faith in Him.
The lost listens more to those that lean on Him for help through any storms of life that comes their way.
1 Peter 3:[SUP]15 [/SUP]But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:
So go before that throne of grace for help in leaning on Him to take care of you and to give you His peace while lifting your sights and hearts to the things above.
Matthew 18:[SUP]19 [/SUP]And a certain scribe came, and said unto him, Master, I will follow thee whithersoever thou goest.[SUP] 20 [/SUP]And Jesus saith unto him, The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head.
Jesus has been there, and with Jesus Christ in you, The Father will take care of you wherever you go.
Matthew 28:
[SUP]18 [/SUP]And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.[SUP]19 [/SUP]Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:[SUP]20 [/SUP]Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you:
and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.
2 Corinthians 13:[SUP]5 [/SUP]Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?
Colossians 1:[SUP]27 [/SUP]To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is
Christ in you, the hope of glory:[SUP] 28 [/SUP]Whom we preach, warning every man, and teaching every man in all wisdom; that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus:
I know Jesus had to lift up my head a lot of times to get me through the storms in my life. He will do so for you too.
So forget about suicide and just give all the worries of your life over to Him and ask Him to deal with it one day at a time, because you are acknowledging you can't, and so wait on Him to see what He does with your life, but be ready as found abiding in Him by His grace & by His help, & willing to go when the Bridegroom comes.
