Lately, I get that way too due to chronic pain and exhaustion. Hopefully, God will mitigate or remove it for me. I will indeed say a prayer for you for you to feel the positive influence of God in your life.
I spent a few years in a re-education camp. It was called the Armed Forces of the United States. My 1st Sgt. said "You have to get with the program son."
"I don't care if it rains or freezes,
'long as I have my plastic Jesus,
Sitting on the dashboard of my car.
Comes in colors pink and pleasant,
Glows in the dark 'cause it's iridescent,
Take it with you when you travel far."
Your strict upbringing played a key part in who you are today. It is good to be different from the rest of the world. The bible states that while we live in the world we must separate from any pretense of evil. Glad to have you join us. Welcome to CC.
Some people have hate in their heart. Nothing at all wrong with Dolly. Since living in Tennessee for the last 6 years, I have had a Dolly license plate.