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La0Michael
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ow family,... im gonna explain alll of me, but im only gonna ask for help on age 17 thru present. i just turned 18 in september. so it wont be super extensive, but In recent threads ive gotten answers that havent really helped,
my problem, is that im confused, i need guidance, not correction feel free to tell me what i did that was wrong. for the most part i already know what ive been doing thats ben wrong but this is what i need anyone who responds to this to do, point me, in the right direction, ok? thats true help, to one, send me to the main one that helps all of us, but to also guide me, as my family ok?
Thank you for anyone who reads and or answers, or prays for me, ok?
im gonna summarize my life before now, so u can see that this is been an everyday thing for me
I was delivered to God 4x's twice before i was born once again on the birth table (had spinal bifida) (side note: i shouldnt be able to walk, but im currently the best street dancer in MO) proof that Gods hand is on my life right?
the fourth time i rememebr i was about 4 and i was dedicated to God at my church randomly in the middle of service i rememebr it because the elder was holding me everyone was surrounding me and praying for me and at the time the elder scared me because he was tall and had a deep he told me i had a calling on my life my mama told me i used to see angels how? you could sit me with no toys no pacifier no nothing in front of a wall,.. and id end up laughin very hard, she knew i could see angels,
anyway lol ive always been spiritually gifted, when i was little
age 3-6 i would wake up every night at 3AM and watch spirits walk through my backyard etc,.. my mama told me i was overimaginative,.
i could always tell what was good and wat was bad, if there was a bad spirit or a person who had very bad tendencies id dislike them. say if a person with murderous intent in their heart wanted to talk to or hold me id cry or run, etc..other than that i liked everyone i met. when i was little, i would astral project, non intentionally,.. why? no clue,. there was things in my room that had a spirit attached to them... namely toys that were left by the previous owners.. everytime i touched looked at for a long time that toy? id have a nightmare that night,,
i always told my mama and dad i could hear my angels and holyspirit,.... they said ok theo good job stuff like that,
age 7-12 i got saved at 7 in church, but i was one that thought everytime i sinned i had to get resaved lol
at 8 truly met jesus for myself,.. i cried watching jesus being crucified
there was one week in june, that i saw death everyday that week. literally.
monday i almost got hit by a truck, that from when i first looked was 7blocks away and not speeding.. 8 or nine steps into the street the grill was in my face and the horn was blaring..
tuesday walking home from school i almost got eaten by a pack of stray dogs i had a feeling an angel diverted their attention because no one was outside but suddenly the dogs all looked one way and ran,
wensday i almost fell off a wall, face first and later that day the monkeybars which were very high i know because a 6'3 man had to jump hard to reach them and his feet would dangle
thursday i almost got shot by a man making a gun sale,
friday me and my dad had to run through a shoot out between thugs and cops, a bullet landed near us,
saturday the ceiling almost fell on me,...
sunday my dad almost got crushed by a truck,.. he was lookin in the trunk of our car,. and the back of the car was flattened,..
he said he doesnt rememeber a thing because the car never beeped, he only felt a strong thrust and he was safe on the curb,.. after crying i went upstairs and asked God who saved my dad, God said i did,..
and my dads angel said and "i helped,.". a little spooked out i asked who said that annd my dads angel rplied "i did.. im your dads guardian angel,..." and my angel spoke and said " and im yours," now,,, did i ask them to speak to me? nope,.. bu tthey did.. and they were comforting,, i felt safe talkin to them,, by this time i was discouraged to bring it to my parents because they always told me i was overimaginative so i suppressed that event that night i broke down and prayed a prayer asking to be saved...
a few months later while in time out at an afterschool program i looked up from having my head down and saw two angels,.. standing behind a teacher and a kid,.. felt that same comfort and love,
months after that a prophetess came to our church and preached afterwards she made the youth come up from youth service to be prayed on... and when coming to me, she stopped, put holy oil on my head and asked the pastors to join her, she began to pray and again stressed the fact that i have a calling on my life,...
thru the yrs
this happened again an again with my pastors elders singers ministers etc visiter preachers all that,..,. on praying sessions where the holyspirit filled the room and instead of service had a prayer session everytime an elder or pastor reached me theys stop, pray harder and tell me i have a calling on my life,.
this was a rought time of life living in a bad neighborhood all that,..
movin on...
age 13-16 we'd moved and this house felt ackward,.. scary even,,, why no idea
but once i was takin out the trash and a dog was in the backyard,. it was barking an growling viciously... i prepared to fight it,.. now,. suddenly it got quiet and sat,..... and when i left it went nuts again.. on the way back up the stairs,.. i heard a female voice,. now yet again i made no attempts to contact it, at all,
but i heard this, " didnt know you could have a female guardian angel huh?" being freaked out that a womans voice popped up in my head i suppressed it,
i believe that was another encounter with an angel...
and life was ok, i was in middle school and was living a half baked christian life this continued on thruout highschool but
mind you the saaaame thing still happened.
eveyr new yrs at mychurch when prayer would happen when they got to me, theyd tell me i have a calling on my life,
every time i prayer session opeend up they would do it again and pray over me, as well as others but i noticed the way they prayed over me was special and they would always mention a calling on mylife whether i knew the pastor singer person or whomever., put it this way, if you came into my church and you can hear God clearly, and he tells you to pray,.. i dont care if you pray for 500 people,.. if i was in that group, when you got to me he'd tell u " this one has a calling on his life"......
now in highschool everynight even tho i wasnt living right id pray "God allow me to come into whatever u have for me when i go into my senior yr of highschool",..
now, this ends the first part,... you know a little about me, and if you feel the need to ask a question or inquire more,? quote the part you need and ask away,.. or email me, k? thanks part two is next,.. take a break if you need to lol, i hope im not too long winded, i just wanna get you to understand.
Now moving on up to
consider this,.. NONE of this hapened until my senior yr of highschool... i was living a half christian life for a loong time but everynight i would pray "God bring me into what you have for me when i hit my senior yr" i turned 17 sept 8th in senior yr, and
4 days later was attacked by spirits,.. two of them obviously demons, how? they felt malicious wispered alot, and when id say jesus theyd cringe, and or move back, the feeling was of total paralyzation, couldnt breathe but could barely mouth "in the name of jesus get off me! over and over.... felt instinctive,.. to do that. after gettin my dad we prayed and i didnt go to sleep, was a little to shooken,, afterwards, my parents told some people at church and they prayed for me....
i've always ben spiritually gifted but i supressed it, ive always ben able to astral project,.. never knew how,. just did it,.. ive been attacked/bothered by spirits plenty of times, but not until i was 17 that it was that bad that i felt i would die, or was willing to get up and speak on it,.. ok?> u with me so far?
at this point i got tired of suppressing everything because it seemed it would happen whether i wanted it to or not,
i found out i was good at reading people,. not physcic type reading,..
i can give you an example, at my job we recently got a new boss,..
she came into the employee break room to greet me, she said in a very happy voive "hi theo im your new boss becca!" and shook my hand the moment, and i do mean the moment our hands touched my immediate reaction
was.....
"whoa your a jerk"
now i didnt say this outloud,.. or make a face to signify it but thats what i felt, and i never dislike anyone without reason,.. you know? so i went and told my co workers, what i felt,.. i was like " ummmm shes mean " theyre like,.. theo she couldnt be you havent even known her for a half hr, but after a week and a half, the workplace except one person dislikes her,...
and if someone comes to me with a dream i can see it,.. and its like i was there,.. now again ima say it and say it again this is non intentional, and ive ben warned and warned, and warned, but after the attacks and reconnection with my gifts i started projecting why? i dont know!!!!! i asked to come into what God has for me, and yes i have a sense of spiritual right and wrong. certain things have always scared me or made m cautious from day one.,.. period,.. now this is one of those things but not for me.,..... if i waqs to try and project? i know it would be wrong so i would feel bad and wrong... you get me? but i dont.. and never have why? i dont know. and before i go on,. this is what i neeed soooo despratel;y need from anyonme who answers this ok?
DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT continuosly tell me what im doing wrong. im coming for help on something im confused on, i even mentioned earlier that i been warned and told that this was wrong. but if its unintentional and i havent done anything to cause it then what??
now next problem, ive always heard angels and the holyspirit, on diffrent octaves what do i mean?
the holyspirit is a small still voice,.. and he corrects me comforts me and tells me things i need to know he loves on me when i need it and protects me
my angels, are small voices and do the same as the above and ive stopped talkin to them on precaution but as a kid i always have, and there was no problems they made me feel safe and corrected me when i was wrong. if u want more info on this feel free to ask,
but im gonna say again take time to understand and put yourself in my shoes, ok? all this was natural to me, i havent asked for it or tried to get it to come to me,
i want to explain something to you all.. k?
now this may be what has caused it, after going to plenty of church members whove done what that quote says up there i got hurt,.. it hurt me that the people who watched me grow up could only tell me wrong from right and not help me not a single bit, it hurt and i fet extremely alone, now thats why im touchy about that, im HERE cus i know something i did was wrong and for the most part i dont know what it was so maybe i should tell you this journey up till now,.. all of the following is from 17 to 18,..
after the feeling of being abandoned set in i came here, the first time, when i was 17 im 18 now... and i met a guy, he was very spiritual , and i was very cautious ok but eventually i came to trust him.
why? everything he said sounded insane but i always asked him to back it up with the bible, and if he couldnt find a good supporting scripture i wouldnt trust him, for the msot part he was legit, and clencher! he cared he didnt just say what i was doing wrong but he would tell me what to do right... tell me how to fix it things like that,.. now he is in short a non denomonational christian with like properties ever since he was young hed be attacked by demons etc, and his pastor would help him and show him how to stop things,
now there are a few things that may come across your mind when i say this but hold on for me and let me explain
when i first admitted to him that i think i hear angels he coached me and said yes , he said we all have guardian angels etc, now, i researched and questioned him till he was blue to make sure that this wasnt the cult that worshipped angels etc,..
that wasnt the case, ill say again he was a non denomonational christian with widened views on spiritual gifts etc. now
he would encourage me to read my bible stray from sin allll that good stuff so, why not trust him? plus the things he taught me worked.,.. he was there when everyone else kept shunning me and tryna chastize me instead of giving me direction.
thats not what i needed....
i was scared... so scared.. my close freind the only one who truly understands me. was telling me to pray ask God for help
but i had alll these gifts that were being rememebered,. and all this stuff,..
now continuing on
after the attacks continued, i began to read psalms 91, over n over and slept on it, literally,.. and it kept me safe, but the times where i would NON INTENTIONALLY astral i would still get attacked!! so i asked him for help, feeling he was the only one available, he told me to form in my mind protection and ask the holyspirit for help, i did,.. the next time i astralled and saw a demon i prayed, and it went away,.. on another occasion. i met what seemed to be called a succubus, a female lust demon, how do i know? i didnt know her, she came onto me and her eyes were slitted, and cat like,.. after she touched me i felt a strong sense of RUN or FIGHT so i pushed her off me, etc, now in another astral and rememebr alllll of this is non intentionall,... ok? i met another succubus, and i pushed her and eventually punched her, now this caused two more demons to pop up and we began to fight, i noticed i had swords, but still i lost that fight, and this scared me greatly, due to fear i didnt astral for a while... even though all of these were non ntentional i believe my fear of attack is what kept me from doing it,..now like every kid whos willing to serve God to the fullest id pray i prayed when i met that guy i prayed when asking for help i prayed when i astralled and didnt know why and i prayed and prayed and prayed not to go astray for this no tto be the wrong thing to do allll of that,. ok?? i have had precautions from the start
now, moving on soon i told my parents they told me to stray away from it, and i did, but then things would get bad again... so what else to do?? i felt alone and scared, so i went back, and understand i told my youth pastors about this and they were the ONLY ones to listen to me. and be ok with my decision. why? they trusted God and they listened My youth pastor used to astral project on purpose and he knows its wrong. now when i came to him about this he understood that i DO NOT IN ANY WAY TRY TO ASTRAL PROJECT so they prayed a prayer of deliverance and guidance. and things got better, now check this... i somehow got ahold of a mare demon, how? no clue, wasnt doin anything wrong to attract one. a mare demon orignates from nightmare, so hence the fact that every second of sleep i had was accompanied with a night mare,. and i researched dreams, now it takes 3stages of sleep in order for a person to dream. that normally takes about a half hr, so i tested this out, upon waking up one morning the clock read 5:46 am, i set the timer for 6;12 ... had a night mare.. at 6:12 i set the clock for 6:16 and had a night mare, came to my parents and my Dad got out his war prayer book,
now during this prayer, i shivered, and a wave of peace came over me, literally,.. and i saw about four black shapes rise out of me,.. in my head all of this came from nowhere... and i saw a bunch of angels in the room around me, praying lifting hands, and praying, and the ones ive known to be near me? i saw them in armor and they were fighting with the shadows,.. now that same night after the prayer? i felt lifted i felt great,.. i went to sleep and this is the astral projection or dream i had, i honestly couldnt tell which one it was, i felt seprate from myself,
i was in my room on my bed and there was a snake at my feet, a python., pretty big, i had on boots and it bit at them, landing bite after bite, and eventually all of its teeth fell out, my little sis hopped over it at the point and it struck out at her, this upset me, so i threw a sock at it, it began to swallow it, and i grabbed a pencil sharpener in my room. i unscrewed the sharp part because it looked like a guillotine, when i did it grew,. i dropped it on the snakes head and killed it,..
now help me out,.. if that was the problem. the demon... the solution was the prayer,.. and the result was the OBE or dream how is that horrible or bad???
now both the astralling and the attacks have subsided, and i stopped talkin to that guy little by little,.. but then randomly itll happen... u know? ill astral of have a vision of the future, and its alllways ben this way there is sooo much about me i wanna share and get corrected,.. because i have absolutely no clue what to do,..
now as of right now? my life is a mess,.. why?
my gifts,.. caused me to run from God,.. i was scared of the fact that i didnt understand my gifts and was nearly alone for most of it, i dont know what to do,.. theres soo much more but ima stop for now
my problem, is that im confused, i need guidance, not correction feel free to tell me what i did that was wrong. for the most part i already know what ive been doing thats ben wrong but this is what i need anyone who responds to this to do, point me, in the right direction, ok? thats true help, to one, send me to the main one that helps all of us, but to also guide me, as my family ok?
Thank you for anyone who reads and or answers, or prays for me, ok?
im gonna summarize my life before now, so u can see that this is been an everyday thing for me
I was delivered to God 4x's twice before i was born once again on the birth table (had spinal bifida) (side note: i shouldnt be able to walk, but im currently the best street dancer in MO) proof that Gods hand is on my life right?
the fourth time i rememebr i was about 4 and i was dedicated to God at my church randomly in the middle of service i rememebr it because the elder was holding me everyone was surrounding me and praying for me and at the time the elder scared me because he was tall and had a deep he told me i had a calling on my life my mama told me i used to see angels how? you could sit me with no toys no pacifier no nothing in front of a wall,.. and id end up laughin very hard, she knew i could see angels,
anyway lol ive always been spiritually gifted, when i was little
age 3-6 i would wake up every night at 3AM and watch spirits walk through my backyard etc,.. my mama told me i was overimaginative,.
i could always tell what was good and wat was bad, if there was a bad spirit or a person who had very bad tendencies id dislike them. say if a person with murderous intent in their heart wanted to talk to or hold me id cry or run, etc..other than that i liked everyone i met. when i was little, i would astral project, non intentionally,.. why? no clue,. there was things in my room that had a spirit attached to them... namely toys that were left by the previous owners.. everytime i touched looked at for a long time that toy? id have a nightmare that night,,
i always told my mama and dad i could hear my angels and holyspirit,.... they said ok theo good job stuff like that,
age 7-12 i got saved at 7 in church, but i was one that thought everytime i sinned i had to get resaved lol
at 8 truly met jesus for myself,.. i cried watching jesus being crucified
there was one week in june, that i saw death everyday that week. literally.
monday i almost got hit by a truck, that from when i first looked was 7blocks away and not speeding.. 8 or nine steps into the street the grill was in my face and the horn was blaring..
tuesday walking home from school i almost got eaten by a pack of stray dogs i had a feeling an angel diverted their attention because no one was outside but suddenly the dogs all looked one way and ran,
wensday i almost fell off a wall, face first and later that day the monkeybars which were very high i know because a 6'3 man had to jump hard to reach them and his feet would dangle
thursday i almost got shot by a man making a gun sale,
friday me and my dad had to run through a shoot out between thugs and cops, a bullet landed near us,
saturday the ceiling almost fell on me,...
sunday my dad almost got crushed by a truck,.. he was lookin in the trunk of our car,. and the back of the car was flattened,..
he said he doesnt rememeber a thing because the car never beeped, he only felt a strong thrust and he was safe on the curb,.. after crying i went upstairs and asked God who saved my dad, God said i did,..
and my dads angel said and "i helped,.". a little spooked out i asked who said that annd my dads angel rplied "i did.. im your dads guardian angel,..." and my angel spoke and said " and im yours," now,,, did i ask them to speak to me? nope,.. bu tthey did.. and they were comforting,, i felt safe talkin to them,, by this time i was discouraged to bring it to my parents because they always told me i was overimaginative so i suppressed that event that night i broke down and prayed a prayer asking to be saved...
a few months later while in time out at an afterschool program i looked up from having my head down and saw two angels,.. standing behind a teacher and a kid,.. felt that same comfort and love,
months after that a prophetess came to our church and preached afterwards she made the youth come up from youth service to be prayed on... and when coming to me, she stopped, put holy oil on my head and asked the pastors to join her, she began to pray and again stressed the fact that i have a calling on my life,...
thru the yrs
this happened again an again with my pastors elders singers ministers etc visiter preachers all that,..,. on praying sessions where the holyspirit filled the room and instead of service had a prayer session everytime an elder or pastor reached me theys stop, pray harder and tell me i have a calling on my life,.
this was a rought time of life living in a bad neighborhood all that,..
movin on...
age 13-16 we'd moved and this house felt ackward,.. scary even,,, why no idea
but once i was takin out the trash and a dog was in the backyard,. it was barking an growling viciously... i prepared to fight it,.. now,. suddenly it got quiet and sat,..... and when i left it went nuts again.. on the way back up the stairs,.. i heard a female voice,. now yet again i made no attempts to contact it, at all,
but i heard this, " didnt know you could have a female guardian angel huh?" being freaked out that a womans voice popped up in my head i suppressed it,
i believe that was another encounter with an angel...
and life was ok, i was in middle school and was living a half baked christian life this continued on thruout highschool but
mind you the saaaame thing still happened.
eveyr new yrs at mychurch when prayer would happen when they got to me, theyd tell me i have a calling on my life,
every time i prayer session opeend up they would do it again and pray over me, as well as others but i noticed the way they prayed over me was special and they would always mention a calling on mylife whether i knew the pastor singer person or whomever., put it this way, if you came into my church and you can hear God clearly, and he tells you to pray,.. i dont care if you pray for 500 people,.. if i was in that group, when you got to me he'd tell u " this one has a calling on his life"......
now in highschool everynight even tho i wasnt living right id pray "God allow me to come into whatever u have for me when i go into my senior yr of highschool",..
now, this ends the first part,... you know a little about me, and if you feel the need to ask a question or inquire more,? quote the part you need and ask away,.. or email me, k? thanks part two is next,.. take a break if you need to lol, i hope im not too long winded, i just wanna get you to understand.
Now moving on up to
consider this,.. NONE of this hapened until my senior yr of highschool... i was living a half christian life for a loong time but everynight i would pray "God bring me into what you have for me when i hit my senior yr" i turned 17 sept 8th in senior yr, and
4 days later was attacked by spirits,.. two of them obviously demons, how? they felt malicious wispered alot, and when id say jesus theyd cringe, and or move back, the feeling was of total paralyzation, couldnt breathe but could barely mouth "in the name of jesus get off me! over and over.... felt instinctive,.. to do that. after gettin my dad we prayed and i didnt go to sleep, was a little to shooken,, afterwards, my parents told some people at church and they prayed for me....
i've always ben spiritually gifted but i supressed it, ive always ben able to astral project,.. never knew how,. just did it,.. ive been attacked/bothered by spirits plenty of times, but not until i was 17 that it was that bad that i felt i would die, or was willing to get up and speak on it,.. ok?> u with me so far?
at this point i got tired of suppressing everything because it seemed it would happen whether i wanted it to or not,
i found out i was good at reading people,. not physcic type reading,..
i can give you an example, at my job we recently got a new boss,..
she came into the employee break room to greet me, she said in a very happy voive "hi theo im your new boss becca!" and shook my hand the moment, and i do mean the moment our hands touched my immediate reaction
was.....
"whoa your a jerk"
now i didnt say this outloud,.. or make a face to signify it but thats what i felt, and i never dislike anyone without reason,.. you know? so i went and told my co workers, what i felt,.. i was like " ummmm shes mean " theyre like,.. theo she couldnt be you havent even known her for a half hr, but after a week and a half, the workplace except one person dislikes her,...
and if someone comes to me with a dream i can see it,.. and its like i was there,.. now again ima say it and say it again this is non intentional, and ive ben warned and warned, and warned, but after the attacks and reconnection with my gifts i started projecting why? i dont know!!!!! i asked to come into what God has for me, and yes i have a sense of spiritual right and wrong. certain things have always scared me or made m cautious from day one.,.. period,.. now this is one of those things but not for me.,..... if i waqs to try and project? i know it would be wrong so i would feel bad and wrong... you get me? but i dont.. and never have why? i dont know. and before i go on,. this is what i neeed soooo despratel;y need from anyonme who answers this ok?
DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT continuosly tell me what im doing wrong. im coming for help on something im confused on, i even mentioned earlier that i been warned and told that this was wrong. but if its unintentional and i havent done anything to cause it then what??
now next problem, ive always heard angels and the holyspirit, on diffrent octaves what do i mean?
the holyspirit is a small still voice,.. and he corrects me comforts me and tells me things i need to know he loves on me when i need it and protects me
my angels, are small voices and do the same as the above and ive stopped talkin to them on precaution but as a kid i always have, and there was no problems they made me feel safe and corrected me when i was wrong. if u want more info on this feel free to ask,
but im gonna say again take time to understand and put yourself in my shoes, ok? all this was natural to me, i havent asked for it or tried to get it to come to me,
i want to explain something to you all.. k?
now this may be what has caused it, after going to plenty of church members whove done what that quote says up there i got hurt,.. it hurt me that the people who watched me grow up could only tell me wrong from right and not help me not a single bit, it hurt and i fet extremely alone, now thats why im touchy about that, im HERE cus i know something i did was wrong and for the most part i dont know what it was so maybe i should tell you this journey up till now,.. all of the following is from 17 to 18,..
after the feeling of being abandoned set in i came here, the first time, when i was 17 im 18 now... and i met a guy, he was very spiritual , and i was very cautious ok but eventually i came to trust him.
why? everything he said sounded insane but i always asked him to back it up with the bible, and if he couldnt find a good supporting scripture i wouldnt trust him, for the msot part he was legit, and clencher! he cared he didnt just say what i was doing wrong but he would tell me what to do right... tell me how to fix it things like that,.. now he is in short a non denomonational christian with like properties ever since he was young hed be attacked by demons etc, and his pastor would help him and show him how to stop things,
now there are a few things that may come across your mind when i say this but hold on for me and let me explain
when i first admitted to him that i think i hear angels he coached me and said yes , he said we all have guardian angels etc, now, i researched and questioned him till he was blue to make sure that this wasnt the cult that worshipped angels etc,..
that wasnt the case, ill say again he was a non denomonational christian with widened views on spiritual gifts etc. now
he would encourage me to read my bible stray from sin allll that good stuff so, why not trust him? plus the things he taught me worked.,.. he was there when everyone else kept shunning me and tryna chastize me instead of giving me direction.
thats not what i needed....
i was scared... so scared.. my close freind the only one who truly understands me. was telling me to pray ask God for help
but i had alll these gifts that were being rememebered,. and all this stuff,..
now continuing on
after the attacks continued, i began to read psalms 91, over n over and slept on it, literally,.. and it kept me safe, but the times where i would NON INTENTIONALLY astral i would still get attacked!! so i asked him for help, feeling he was the only one available, he told me to form in my mind protection and ask the holyspirit for help, i did,.. the next time i astralled and saw a demon i prayed, and it went away,.. on another occasion. i met what seemed to be called a succubus, a female lust demon, how do i know? i didnt know her, she came onto me and her eyes were slitted, and cat like,.. after she touched me i felt a strong sense of RUN or FIGHT so i pushed her off me, etc, now in another astral and rememebr alllll of this is non intentionall,... ok? i met another succubus, and i pushed her and eventually punched her, now this caused two more demons to pop up and we began to fight, i noticed i had swords, but still i lost that fight, and this scared me greatly, due to fear i didnt astral for a while... even though all of these were non ntentional i believe my fear of attack is what kept me from doing it,..now like every kid whos willing to serve God to the fullest id pray i prayed when i met that guy i prayed when asking for help i prayed when i astralled and didnt know why and i prayed and prayed and prayed not to go astray for this no tto be the wrong thing to do allll of that,. ok?? i have had precautions from the start
now, moving on soon i told my parents they told me to stray away from it, and i did, but then things would get bad again... so what else to do?? i felt alone and scared, so i went back, and understand i told my youth pastors about this and they were the ONLY ones to listen to me. and be ok with my decision. why? they trusted God and they listened My youth pastor used to astral project on purpose and he knows its wrong. now when i came to him about this he understood that i DO NOT IN ANY WAY TRY TO ASTRAL PROJECT so they prayed a prayer of deliverance and guidance. and things got better, now check this... i somehow got ahold of a mare demon, how? no clue, wasnt doin anything wrong to attract one. a mare demon orignates from nightmare, so hence the fact that every second of sleep i had was accompanied with a night mare,. and i researched dreams, now it takes 3stages of sleep in order for a person to dream. that normally takes about a half hr, so i tested this out, upon waking up one morning the clock read 5:46 am, i set the timer for 6;12 ... had a night mare.. at 6:12 i set the clock for 6:16 and had a night mare, came to my parents and my Dad got out his war prayer book,
now during this prayer, i shivered, and a wave of peace came over me, literally,.. and i saw about four black shapes rise out of me,.. in my head all of this came from nowhere... and i saw a bunch of angels in the room around me, praying lifting hands, and praying, and the ones ive known to be near me? i saw them in armor and they were fighting with the shadows,.. now that same night after the prayer? i felt lifted i felt great,.. i went to sleep and this is the astral projection or dream i had, i honestly couldnt tell which one it was, i felt seprate from myself,
i was in my room on my bed and there was a snake at my feet, a python., pretty big, i had on boots and it bit at them, landing bite after bite, and eventually all of its teeth fell out, my little sis hopped over it at the point and it struck out at her, this upset me, so i threw a sock at it, it began to swallow it, and i grabbed a pencil sharpener in my room. i unscrewed the sharp part because it looked like a guillotine, when i did it grew,. i dropped it on the snakes head and killed it,..
now help me out,.. if that was the problem. the demon... the solution was the prayer,.. and the result was the OBE or dream how is that horrible or bad???
now both the astralling and the attacks have subsided, and i stopped talkin to that guy little by little,.. but then randomly itll happen... u know? ill astral of have a vision of the future, and its alllways ben this way there is sooo much about me i wanna share and get corrected,.. because i have absolutely no clue what to do,..
now as of right now? my life is a mess,.. why?
my gifts,.. caused me to run from God,.. i was scared of the fact that i didnt understand my gifts and was nearly alone for most of it, i dont know what to do,.. theres soo much more but ima stop for now
