May Jesus make his word powerful in you:
My beautiful friends. I hope so much that you could see, even as I see, that the Lord Jesus Christ is full of grace and truth and he wants to help you, because he cares for you.
I want to be cautious about how I answer you but at the same time I must also be forceful, because this is not a light matter, this is a really heavy issue.
I am sure that you know the way strife works. Like on that day when if anyone says anything wrong, you will just go crazy. Or like on that day when you try to do something good for once and people just don't get it and they make you angry. My friends, this is a very quick road to hell. Because the end of this is death, even suicide. And I am not ashamed to mention it, Satan is doing this, not your mind. He is using your lust to fuel your anger.
I see, that the main people Satan plagues with lust are people who are passionate. But Satan wants that passion spent on natural things rather than it to be reserved for spiritual things. I know that you have so much passion. It is like a fire burning deep, but the passion that ends in hate is a passion to hell. But the passion that is reserved to love is a passion to heaven.
So now we see to things working. Desire against desire. A desire to do good and a desire to do evil. But to which will you give your body? It is easy to do evil, but how very hard it is to do good. And this is the war. Don't you see how obvious it is?
So I decided to test myself to see my issues. I do not care about what people say, I want to see it for my self. So I said, okay, I will not think one evil thing, lets see if I can do it. I FAILED! I said I will not think one lustful thought, I FAILED! I said I will not get angry, I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF. So I was powerless to keep his commands, and I cried out to him, because his standards are too high for me to reach on my own. BUT OH THE GRACE OF GOD!!
He not only said, PEACE BE STILL! But then he began to teach me how to keep his commands. And this is when he started teaching me how we must fight against the desires of the flesh that are fueled by the wickedness that is always at war with our souls.
I said to God, ''SHOW ME WHY YOU HATE SIN!!'' I said to God, ''HELP ME TO HATE SIN THE WAY YOU DO!!'' I and I saw very wicked things in people, that nothing good could come out of them. And not only this, he showed me the wickedness in my own heart. And even more he showed me why we suffer. Now I see that Satan is at war with our hearts, to win us away from God, but Jesus is at war over our hearts to draw us to him.
And even things as 'little'' as lying is a great sin, indeed, and every imagination of man is evil from his youth. BUT THE LORD IS GREATER THAN OUR HEARTS!!! SO CAST YOUR CARES UPON HIM!! HE WILL SHOW YOU THE WAY TO ETERNAL LIFE!!
May Jesus bless you!!!