i'm so tired and you probably tired reading my post as well.. lol..
i dont know why trial after trial
i havent be able to munch yet and still grieving for my grandma..
now mom called me and crying..
dad having tumor on his neck for sometimes already..
he go to hospital and want to remove it..
they do some test on him..
he got the result but wont tell us..
he said doctor didnt have courage to remove it..
mom said its emergency but she doesnt even know what it is since dad wont tell us.. mom confused and dont know what to do..
here i am worried a lot and told them to back home asap and check on another hospital.. they are on other city..
but mom said dad speak randomly and not sure..
please pray that everything OK..
i'm tired both spiritually and physically.. i dont even want to talk to anyone lately especially my best friend.. i just building myself away from everything around me and keep making my mind busy..
i'm sad and tired..
no one Christian in my family except me.. even i dont feel that i'm a good Christian myself.. they didnt like me to be Christian.. having rough times in the past because of my faith and still having that.. that alone already makes me sad and i cant even go to church anymore
i was lying in the past to be able to go church and cell group.. but all ended badly.. i shouldn't lie for whatever reason.. i hurt everyone..
i feel this is too much for me
i feel jealous for those who is born in a Christian family and have freedom for that..
and here i am has to stand for them and pray for them.. i believe bible said 1 saved and 1 household also saved.. i really waiting that time comes true.. i feel alone right now..
please pray for my dad.. he is the best dad i ever asked for.. i want him to be happy and the most important thing is.. i want him to be saved as well.. not only him but the rest of family as well..
i sounds so miserable right now.. and i know i did lot of typos here as well..
thank you for reading and praying..
i dont know why trial after trial
i havent be able to munch yet and still grieving for my grandma..
now mom called me and crying..
dad having tumor on his neck for sometimes already..
he go to hospital and want to remove it..
they do some test on him..
he got the result but wont tell us..
he said doctor didnt have courage to remove it..
mom said its emergency but she doesnt even know what it is since dad wont tell us.. mom confused and dont know what to do..
here i am worried a lot and told them to back home asap and check on another hospital.. they are on other city..
but mom said dad speak randomly and not sure..
please pray that everything OK..
i'm tired both spiritually and physically.. i dont even want to talk to anyone lately especially my best friend.. i just building myself away from everything around me and keep making my mind busy..
i'm sad and tired..
no one Christian in my family except me.. even i dont feel that i'm a good Christian myself.. they didnt like me to be Christian.. having rough times in the past because of my faith and still having that.. that alone already makes me sad and i cant even go to church anymore
i feel this is too much for me
and here i am has to stand for them and pray for them.. i believe bible said 1 saved and 1 household also saved.. i really waiting that time comes true.. i feel alone right now..
please pray for my dad.. he is the best dad i ever asked for.. i want him to be happy and the most important thing is.. i want him to be saved as well.. not only him but the rest of family as well..
i sounds so miserable right now.. and i know i did lot of typos here as well..
thank you for reading and praying..