I cannot seem to remember a time when I truly felt real deep assurance of being saved. Perhaps I have felt that way before, but can't recall what it was like.
I can be analytical and one to ask questions. I do believe in Jesus and that he died for me on the cross and rose again. I learned something about God's love in December of 2017, so it may just be a long process. I know Jesus came for me too and I don't have to be perfect to be accepted. I just want to be secure in Jesus.
"Perhaps I have felt that way before, but can't recall what it was like." This is the part of your message from God. He speaks through our thoughts. You HAVE felt it before...though you may not remember when.
Children believe the best. I am loved, bc I am loved. I trust God because he is God. It really is that simple and yet as adults we analyze it saying "are you really saved?" etc..... This is not from God.
I know....bc I struggle the same way at times. However I've had enough experiences with God to trust I am saved. Not perfect, saved. There's a difference.