God has been doing something and working in me the past 4 weeks. It's been so hard and he's just making it harder and harder. I've disciplined myself just so I would stay faithful but it's getting too hard. I've been praying asking God to remove this confusion that I have and to help me and make it easier but he hasn't answered any of the prayers I've asked him the past 3 weeks. I'm so depressed and unhappy. I've come too far to give up. I've been crying on and off all day. I haven't been happy in about a month now. I'm hating every second of this. For the life of me, I don't understand how people have such an easy time staying faithful. To me, it's the absolute hardest thing ever and I just don't get it. I am getting to the point of throwing in the towel. I've just about had it.
Christian life is supposed to be filled with joy. Mine is filled with unhappiness and depression and confusion and holding on by a string. What kind of life is that??
i want to be carefree and happy again like I used to be.
Im so nervous not wanting to turn on God yet he's making this so extremely difficult to hang on. I have asked him to continue to mold me but he's changing things in me and continuously making it harder. I just don't understand. Every single day this last month has been a huge battle. I've spent hours in prayer believing and trusting and hoping. I'm just so unhappy. I don't have any peace. I have unrest.
Christian life is supposed to be filled with joy. Mine is filled with unhappiness and depression and confusion and holding on by a string. What kind of life is that??
i want to be carefree and happy again like I used to be.
Im so nervous not wanting to turn on God yet he's making this so extremely difficult to hang on. I have asked him to continue to mold me but he's changing things in me and continuously making it harder. I just don't understand. Every single day this last month has been a huge battle. I've spent hours in prayer believing and trusting and hoping. I'm just so unhappy. I don't have any peace. I have unrest.

