This post may be more appropriate in another part of the forums, but I post it here because of my respect for those that frequent this particular area. I hope that it can foster deeper discussion than is normal around here. If not... oh well. 
I recently was asked if I believed in Jesus. I was raised a christian. Unlike many stories, I wasn't ever "just going through the motions." I made my faith personal and real. I accepted Jesus and dedicated my life to love.
Well I went through a period of doubt. My dedication to love never failed, but my faith was almost gone. I had questions that I couldn't answer, there were problems that just kept getting swept under the rug. It seemed like the answers that were forthcoming were all so empty.
Anyways, someone finally was able to answer one of the most fundamental questions I was wrestling with. I thought I had moved past that stage of doubting. Until I was asked "do you believe in Jesus? I mean really truly believe?" I instantly thought "YES! I believe." But before I was able to respond it hit me. I don't think I really can say that. I believe the Bible is truth. I believe that sin is...well, sinful. I believe the devil is there tempting us. I believe we are free from sin and that we have been forgiven. I even believe that Jesus lived and died exactly as the Bible says. But do I believe in Jesus? I wasn't so sure. All I really knew was that I believed that I needed to believe in Jesus.
So what do you guys think? Is my mind just over-complicating something simple? Is believing in Jesus more than a sum of the parts? Am i just inventing a difference between believing in Jesus and believing that you need to believe? Is this just the devil messing with me? What does it really mean to believe IN Jesus?
I recently was asked if I believed in Jesus. I was raised a christian. Unlike many stories, I wasn't ever "just going through the motions." I made my faith personal and real. I accepted Jesus and dedicated my life to love.
Well I went through a period of doubt. My dedication to love never failed, but my faith was almost gone. I had questions that I couldn't answer, there were problems that just kept getting swept under the rug. It seemed like the answers that were forthcoming were all so empty.
Anyways, someone finally was able to answer one of the most fundamental questions I was wrestling with. I thought I had moved past that stage of doubting. Until I was asked "do you believe in Jesus? I mean really truly believe?" I instantly thought "YES! I believe." But before I was able to respond it hit me. I don't think I really can say that. I believe the Bible is truth. I believe that sin is...well, sinful. I believe the devil is there tempting us. I believe we are free from sin and that we have been forgiven. I even believe that Jesus lived and died exactly as the Bible says. But do I believe in Jesus? I wasn't so sure. All I really knew was that I believed that I needed to believe in Jesus.
So what do you guys think? Is my mind just over-complicating something simple? Is believing in Jesus more than a sum of the parts? Am i just inventing a difference between believing in Jesus and believing that you need to believe? Is this just the devil messing with me? What does it really mean to believe IN Jesus?