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Well before I gave up everything to God I was talking to this one guy. I liked him and he liked me. I went on a retreat for a week, completely isolated from the outside world and anything that could come between me and God. I realized that I didnt really like this guy and i was lusting after him.. When i came back from my retreat i said goodbye who was blocking my path with God.
Well, when i tried saying goodbye to that one particular guy he started calling me the "Fake Jasmyne" and "Brainwashed"... that hurt but what hurt most was that he didnt want to accept God. He started getting annoyed with my "Jesus Talk" and i realized that i needed to stop talking to him. He started threatening me with his own suicide, saying if i left he wouldnt live (he was dead serious.. not someone seeking attention) I told him he needed to find God again, he had been through some things.. I told him that God is like this light inside us, even when we're at our worse he never dies out (or something like that) and he told me i was his light. Ouch, i dont want to be anyone's light. Jesus should be his light /:
So i continued talking to him, and since he didnt like hearing the name Jesus i used the terms "good side" and "bad side".. he understands he's on the wrong path, but still refuses..
After several more attempts of saying goodbye i told a friend from here kind of what was going on.. he told me "sometimes people have to hit rock bottom to know the rock that we stand on"(or something like that, my memory isnt the best) So i told my friend that quote, and said i couldnt continue talking to him & that when hes tries suicide again i wont be there, and i wouldnt respond t his texting or calling. It was the hardest thing possible to do.. to just stand aside while someone is in that much pain, but i did it. The same day he sent me a text saying he wanted to recieve God, so i started helping him like i should.. turns out he wasnt as serious as i thought and now he wants to committ suicide again because he knows he's in the way of my path.
If i say goodbye to him, he dies. If i continue talking to him, im dead in a sense. Im not strong enough yet to tackle all temptations and doubts and negativity.. he's like the definition of negative.
Help? Advice?
Well, when i tried saying goodbye to that one particular guy he started calling me the "Fake Jasmyne" and "Brainwashed"... that hurt but what hurt most was that he didnt want to accept God. He started getting annoyed with my "Jesus Talk" and i realized that i needed to stop talking to him. He started threatening me with his own suicide, saying if i left he wouldnt live (he was dead serious.. not someone seeking attention) I told him he needed to find God again, he had been through some things.. I told him that God is like this light inside us, even when we're at our worse he never dies out (or something like that) and he told me i was his light. Ouch, i dont want to be anyone's light. Jesus should be his light /:
So i continued talking to him, and since he didnt like hearing the name Jesus i used the terms "good side" and "bad side".. he understands he's on the wrong path, but still refuses..
After several more attempts of saying goodbye i told a friend from here kind of what was going on.. he told me "sometimes people have to hit rock bottom to know the rock that we stand on"(or something like that, my memory isnt the best) So i told my friend that quote, and said i couldnt continue talking to him & that when hes tries suicide again i wont be there, and i wouldnt respond t his texting or calling. It was the hardest thing possible to do.. to just stand aside while someone is in that much pain, but i did it. The same day he sent me a text saying he wanted to recieve God, so i started helping him like i should.. turns out he wasnt as serious as i thought and now he wants to committ suicide again because he knows he's in the way of my path.
If i say goodbye to him, he dies. If i continue talking to him, im dead in a sense. Im not strong enough yet to tackle all temptations and doubts and negativity.. he's like the definition of negative.
Help? Advice?