Hi Cary, your emotions are real. It is always difficult situation and like mentioned in the previous posts draw closer to God. Psalms 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. He is just awesome and as you sit at the feet of Jesus, he will daily renew your strength. There is a particular scripture that came to my mind. Jeremiah 31:3 The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Malachi 3:6 For I am the LORD, I change not. When you put those two scripture together. God is saying that my love for you will not change even if there is nobody that cares and loves you God's love never changes. People change how they feel about you. But God will love you till the day you close your eyes. May you find strength in the word and peace in your time of darkness. Another I like to encourage you with is Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. Even though it seems there is darkness all around you. You should still have faith that God is in control. Use this time to find God all over again. Blessings to you.