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Vine1989
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Hello everyone.
I could really use some prayer right now.
I am a single guy whose has had a lot of trouble dating in my life. Im 28 and i live in Atlanta. I have never really been a relationship before (Also to make a note i have been struggling with depression and anxiety for about 2 years now)
Earlier this year i began a friendship with a guy at my churches girlfriend. This girl and i were just friends and really enjoined each other company. We just clicked really well. Well long story short she ended up breaking up with the guy back in march because the guy was being a idiot to her.
A few weeks after breaking up with him she begins to reach out to me. So we just started talking and having fun messaging each other. I then decided because she was dating friend before (who he is not really my friend) that we should not date. He is the kinda guy that likes to start crap and did not want to start anything that would cause us alot of stress. She understood and we just kept is as friends. Well time goes on. Also to let you know that right now in my life i dont have many friends. Alot of my friends have moved on in there lives. And i have been trying to get back out and meet people but have had alot of trouble doing so. Back to the story. So we just keeping talking for about a month and everything was great. She then decided that she wanted to be more then just friends. I got really scared because i felt pressured. I spoke with my father about what i need to do. (Both my parents are very godly christian people and are christian counselors). He asked me what God thinks i should do. I felt in my gut that it was a no and i knew it was God. So i told her that we are not supposed to date. She also got the same thing. We were both hurt but we understood. So we began to keep things as friends. I kept pressing the lord about why i still have feelings for her. The lord gave the girl a dream that if she pushed me to hard that it was going to hurt me, and that we needed to take things slow. I got a dream that God has us on 2 paths right now. but if we keep doing what we needed to do that we would meet in the end. So we both decided that we needed to take things slow. We also setup some boundaries for us. So that we would not stumble. We also decided to do a devotion together to keep our focus on God. For me as a guy who has never really been in a any-type of relationship this meant the world to me. So for about the last 2 months we would message each other everyday, Send fun pics to each other and pray and encourage each other. I felt like i was on cloud 9.
One of the main road blocks that i had in this is my family. One of the big issues i saw was that this girl had a hard drug problem for along time and lived a life because of it. She got saved several years ago and turned her life around completely. And she has been clean since. Now i was ok with it. But i knew my family was not. My dad had a drug problem when he was really young. But he turned his life around and got radically saved. So he understands the whole drug thing. I knew that they did not hate her at all but in my heart i knew that they felt that she was not the one for me. But because of all the dreams and impression for God i had i felt that i needed to continue. But i had not told my parents that we were talking about being serious. So about a week ago i decided to talk with my dad about it. That we wanted to be friends and see what God does in the midst of this. He had his reservations about this but he told me that i needed to make the decision. He told me that i needed to talk with my mom about it. I decided to wait a week. Me and the girl were still talking and i told her about my talk with my dad. She was abit concerned but was ok. She also wanted to let her family know about us aswell. But her situation is alot different then mine. i went and i saw her on sunday of last week after church for a few minutes. We had a great time of just walking around her work. I even decided to hold hands with her. I was so happy in that moment. Cause i felt so comfortable. Well after that i went home and told mt dad something new about us. He then told me everything he told me before but said that he does not approve. Not because he hates her, He just knows that she is not the one for me. Well i then decided to have a talk with my mom. My mom knew about us talking because god gave her a impression that we were. She then told me that she is not for us either. Because the other thing is that the girls family is kinda in a weird place on somethings. She told me that if i were to marry her then i would be marrying the whole family. I knew that when she was talking to me it was because she cared for me so much. It was not out of control but out of love. She then told me a story about a man of God called watchmen nee. He wanted to do this mission trip with a friend of his. They prayed and new that God told them to do this. He went to his parents and told them about the mission. The forbid him to go. He got angry. His friends told him to defy his parents because they all new that he heard from the lord. But as a act of obedience he stayed home and did not go on the mission. His friend went and got killed during the mission. Later on he was still able to go and do the mission. So God allowed him to complete the work he told him before to do.
I knew that in that moment i had to break this off with her. Because all i saw was alot of hardship for the two of us down the road. But i still did not want to break it off. So later on a called her sobbing that my parents dont approve. And then told her that i felt in my heart that i needed to obey my parents even though i am a grown man and follow the watchman nee scenario in this. To respect my parents wishes even though i dont want too. I then told her some of their concerns about us. I knew that she was hurt and upset. I felt like the most wretched thing in the world. And to make matter worse she is about to go on a mission trip with the church she is attending in about a 2 weeks. So i told her that we needed to just lay this at the cross and when she gets back we can decided what God wants us to do. If he wants us just to keep it on a friends level or to break it all off complete.
The hardest thing for me is that she was everything i wanted in a girl. Some who has a deep love for God, Some one who wants to go into the ministry, who understands me as a person, someone who see's my worth, someone i could be best friends with, someone who makes me laugh, someone to encourage me to get better and be a better man and someone who is very beautiful.
I am just so hurt right now and i dont know what to do. Part of me still wants to go for it but the other wants to listen to the wisdom of my parents and not pursue it. So any prayer that you all can give me would be a great help.
I could really use some prayer right now.
I am a single guy whose has had a lot of trouble dating in my life. Im 28 and i live in Atlanta. I have never really been a relationship before (Also to make a note i have been struggling with depression and anxiety for about 2 years now)
Earlier this year i began a friendship with a guy at my churches girlfriend. This girl and i were just friends and really enjoined each other company. We just clicked really well. Well long story short she ended up breaking up with the guy back in march because the guy was being a idiot to her.
A few weeks after breaking up with him she begins to reach out to me. So we just started talking and having fun messaging each other. I then decided because she was dating friend before (who he is not really my friend) that we should not date. He is the kinda guy that likes to start crap and did not want to start anything that would cause us alot of stress. She understood and we just kept is as friends. Well time goes on. Also to let you know that right now in my life i dont have many friends. Alot of my friends have moved on in there lives. And i have been trying to get back out and meet people but have had alot of trouble doing so. Back to the story. So we just keeping talking for about a month and everything was great. She then decided that she wanted to be more then just friends. I got really scared because i felt pressured. I spoke with my father about what i need to do. (Both my parents are very godly christian people and are christian counselors). He asked me what God thinks i should do. I felt in my gut that it was a no and i knew it was God. So i told her that we are not supposed to date. She also got the same thing. We were both hurt but we understood. So we began to keep things as friends. I kept pressing the lord about why i still have feelings for her. The lord gave the girl a dream that if she pushed me to hard that it was going to hurt me, and that we needed to take things slow. I got a dream that God has us on 2 paths right now. but if we keep doing what we needed to do that we would meet in the end. So we both decided that we needed to take things slow. We also setup some boundaries for us. So that we would not stumble. We also decided to do a devotion together to keep our focus on God. For me as a guy who has never really been in a any-type of relationship this meant the world to me. So for about the last 2 months we would message each other everyday, Send fun pics to each other and pray and encourage each other. I felt like i was on cloud 9.
One of the main road blocks that i had in this is my family. One of the big issues i saw was that this girl had a hard drug problem for along time and lived a life because of it. She got saved several years ago and turned her life around completely. And she has been clean since. Now i was ok with it. But i knew my family was not. My dad had a drug problem when he was really young. But he turned his life around and got radically saved. So he understands the whole drug thing. I knew that they did not hate her at all but in my heart i knew that they felt that she was not the one for me. But because of all the dreams and impression for God i had i felt that i needed to continue. But i had not told my parents that we were talking about being serious. So about a week ago i decided to talk with my dad about it. That we wanted to be friends and see what God does in the midst of this. He had his reservations about this but he told me that i needed to make the decision. He told me that i needed to talk with my mom about it. I decided to wait a week. Me and the girl were still talking and i told her about my talk with my dad. She was abit concerned but was ok. She also wanted to let her family know about us aswell. But her situation is alot different then mine. i went and i saw her on sunday of last week after church for a few minutes. We had a great time of just walking around her work. I even decided to hold hands with her. I was so happy in that moment. Cause i felt so comfortable. Well after that i went home and told mt dad something new about us. He then told me everything he told me before but said that he does not approve. Not because he hates her, He just knows that she is not the one for me. Well i then decided to have a talk with my mom. My mom knew about us talking because god gave her a impression that we were. She then told me that she is not for us either. Because the other thing is that the girls family is kinda in a weird place on somethings. She told me that if i were to marry her then i would be marrying the whole family. I knew that when she was talking to me it was because she cared for me so much. It was not out of control but out of love. She then told me a story about a man of God called watchmen nee. He wanted to do this mission trip with a friend of his. They prayed and new that God told them to do this. He went to his parents and told them about the mission. The forbid him to go. He got angry. His friends told him to defy his parents because they all new that he heard from the lord. But as a act of obedience he stayed home and did not go on the mission. His friend went and got killed during the mission. Later on he was still able to go and do the mission. So God allowed him to complete the work he told him before to do.
I knew that in that moment i had to break this off with her. Because all i saw was alot of hardship for the two of us down the road. But i still did not want to break it off. So later on a called her sobbing that my parents dont approve. And then told her that i felt in my heart that i needed to obey my parents even though i am a grown man and follow the watchman nee scenario in this. To respect my parents wishes even though i dont want too. I then told her some of their concerns about us. I knew that she was hurt and upset. I felt like the most wretched thing in the world. And to make matter worse she is about to go on a mission trip with the church she is attending in about a 2 weeks. So i told her that we needed to just lay this at the cross and when she gets back we can decided what God wants us to do. If he wants us just to keep it on a friends level or to break it all off complete.
The hardest thing for me is that she was everything i wanted in a girl. Some who has a deep love for God, Some one who wants to go into the ministry, who understands me as a person, someone who see's my worth, someone i could be best friends with, someone who makes me laugh, someone to encourage me to get better and be a better man and someone who is very beautiful.
I am just so hurt right now and i dont know what to do. Part of me still wants to go for it but the other wants to listen to the wisdom of my parents and not pursue it. So any prayer that you all can give me would be a great help.
