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Krii
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Interesting, how God, can sometimes talk to us, point out some unhealthy attitude. I got sick today, my back is killing me, but what hurts more is my soul, cause I feel guilty about it, about being sick and incapable of working and doing all the usual stuff. Like the sickness is the problem. But actual problem is my attitude to the sickness, myself, my worth.. I feel like I have to be able to doin...g everything, everytime, everywhere! As a matter of fact that defines me, gives me worth..How wrong is that, huh!... and here is the failure of that kind of thinking. When I get sick and incapable of doing things I am defining myself with, it's like I loose my identity and I hate myself for being sick and weak. I loose control, no actually, illusion of having control..