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DorothyG
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Obviously MY will is stronger than God's will.
So yeah,
Still going through the same stuff. Just when things are actually going okay, my emotions subside, and I can actually get my brain cleared up a little bit... BAM. Depression.
This is really getting too much to handle. I'm only 19 years old. If God really thinks I can handle this the rest of my life then I really am useless to him. Because I don't think I can do this anymore. I thought when I accepted Christ God would start changing my heart and start controlling my desires to do his will. (Which is what 95% of my prayers consist of)
If his will is for me to suffer the rest of my life.... I don't want anything to do with this anymore.
I really don't.
So yeah,
Still going through the same stuff. Just when things are actually going okay, my emotions subside, and I can actually get my brain cleared up a little bit... BAM. Depression.
This is really getting too much to handle. I'm only 19 years old. If God really thinks I can handle this the rest of my life then I really am useless to him. Because I don't think I can do this anymore. I thought when I accepted Christ God would start changing my heart and start controlling my desires to do his will. (Which is what 95% of my prayers consist of)
If his will is for me to suffer the rest of my life.... I don't want anything to do with this anymore.
I really don't.