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i married an unbeliever, he started cheating on me, he left me and our children, and for the longest time i thought i was the victim and i needed to forgive him. i was cruel and cold to him during our separation, he asked to come home a couple of times and i always answered him, "my mind is set, if you want it changed, pray that God changes my mind cos i won't if it was up to me." until one day, he agreed to sign the divorce paper. after signing it, everywhere i went i got the message that "God hates divorces" and i read and reread hosea.
our divorce will be finalised in less than 2 months, one night last week, i had an epiphany, it was like the Holy Spirit was speaking to me directly, and then i saw my sins, my wickedness during our marriage, how i was demanding, and that i had no compassion for my husband, i was a fake christian, no wonder he hated me... i begged for forgiveness, and he tries to convince me that we have no other ending than a divorce.
i repented, i apologised, i tried to seek his forgiveness and asked him to come home. we started to chat and the past stirred up. he resented me, and he is now with someone else he believed could be his destiny. that was a woman he dated before i met him, she waited for him during our marriage, cheated with him and now she is waiting for him to divorce me so they can be married. i didn't know her existent until after we got married and imagine how shocked i was when i knew she was the one my husband was having an affair with. i was so mad cos she should have tried harder to keep her relationship with my husband before we were husband and wife, not to break our marriage when my husband and i were in a bad place in our marriage.
i pray to God that if He hates my divorce He shall be in control of our marriage. i know that even if i apologise i might not be forgiven. but it hurts so much that he is trying to convince me to give him up. i keep praying but i'm getting nowhere.
what should i do? i know i have grounds for divorce, he committed adultery, and 2corinthians 6:14 do not be yoked together with unbelievers. so i should just let go, but then God changed my mind, He hates divorces and He told us to forgive adulter. I did, not only that, i confessed my sins. i'm lost and i don't know what to do.
He messages me daily to tell me how bad an idea it is for us to get back together, even though he loves our children dearly. He trusts that i can manage. and he wants a new life without us. i'm just... i can't even gather words for how i feel now.
our divorce will be finalised in less than 2 months, one night last week, i had an epiphany, it was like the Holy Spirit was speaking to me directly, and then i saw my sins, my wickedness during our marriage, how i was demanding, and that i had no compassion for my husband, i was a fake christian, no wonder he hated me... i begged for forgiveness, and he tries to convince me that we have no other ending than a divorce.
i repented, i apologised, i tried to seek his forgiveness and asked him to come home. we started to chat and the past stirred up. he resented me, and he is now with someone else he believed could be his destiny. that was a woman he dated before i met him, she waited for him during our marriage, cheated with him and now she is waiting for him to divorce me so they can be married. i didn't know her existent until after we got married and imagine how shocked i was when i knew she was the one my husband was having an affair with. i was so mad cos she should have tried harder to keep her relationship with my husband before we were husband and wife, not to break our marriage when my husband and i were in a bad place in our marriage.
i pray to God that if He hates my divorce He shall be in control of our marriage. i know that even if i apologise i might not be forgiven. but it hurts so much that he is trying to convince me to give him up. i keep praying but i'm getting nowhere.
what should i do? i know i have grounds for divorce, he committed adultery, and 2corinthians 6:14 do not be yoked together with unbelievers. so i should just let go, but then God changed my mind, He hates divorces and He told us to forgive adulter. I did, not only that, i confessed my sins. i'm lost and i don't know what to do.
He messages me daily to tell me how bad an idea it is for us to get back together, even though he loves our children dearly. He trusts that i can manage. and he wants a new life without us. i'm just... i can't even gather words for how i feel now.