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It all started early this year, I failed my first class at my college. It was my second to last semester at this community college. I felt like nothing. My sisters was taking the same classes as I was so we can help each other and things would be easy. But all it did was make things worse. Everyone started to compare me to my sisters and started asking me why I couldn't do as good as them. When my dad found out ( I was 18, started college early.) he called me a failure and said he didn't want anything to do with me. that my sisters are the winners and all I am is a loser. Later after that semester, the next semester, I got all my grades up to A's and B's but that did change what he had said to me. It still stuck with me, but he forgot about it and when I brought it up he said he was trying to encourage me to do better. When I told him how it made me feel, he didn't care. Now I'm starting at a new school (graduated from 2 year school.), a four year school, and its starting all over agine. But now I've started burning my self when I fail a test or exams. It hurts but I feel so much better after. I don't now what's wrong with me and I scared to talk to someone because they'll think I'm crazy or I might kill myself, which I would never do. But If someone could give advice. If they went thought something similar that would be grate.