Well. I will say the internet has an awful lot of people who aren't who they appear to be. Seeking God through the bible was what I did long before I went asking questions to strangers who may be less than genuine.
If we want to be saved from a just punishment, we need to trust in Christ as our Lord and Savior and be born again.
It is not about what you do, but about who you are.
He can adopt us as His own children, but this happens by grace (His mercy) through faith (in Christ).
If you are truly feeling drawn to Christ I believe you ought to be willing to accept His word as absolute truth,learn of His promises, and trust in them.
If you have belief,trust, and confidence in Christ you will notice Gods works in you.
You will start to see the things He hates as shameful and something to avoid or be delivered from.
You will start to desire to be more useful and want to share the truth He has provided you....
We start as dirt.... His truth is the seed which when planted in us, if recieved and not rejected will grow roots then into a sappling and eventually a tree with a lot of fruit.
You at the very least if being honest have accepted you need His mercy, seems someone has planted some seeds of truth at some point.... you just need to accept this as true and nourish this truth by seeking His will and in time you will be confident that He who started in you will continue unto the day of Christ...