This might sound stupid - but its something thats been holding back my faith for months.
My faith was pretty strong until about October last year, then I started having doubts. My faith got weaker and weaker until a few weeks ago.
In October, I went through a period of intense anger - I got so angry one day that I punched my computer and destroyed it. Only some of the files were recovered. But what I lost was of the most importance. I lost about 9 months worth of notes I had made while studying the bible intensely. About 20 whole pages worth of valuable information was destroyed. I really spent hours and hours each day understanding every passage of every chapter of many books of the bible, and writing down what I learnt, and it helped my faith so much.
But now its all gone. I know this sounds silly because it was my fault, but why would God allow that to happen? I know there are consequences for my actions, but God is in control. How could allowing so much valuable material to be destroyed to me or my faith any good?
This needs to be resolved before my faith can increase again. I just don't understand why this happened.
My faith was pretty strong until about October last year, then I started having doubts. My faith got weaker and weaker until a few weeks ago.
In October, I went through a period of intense anger - I got so angry one day that I punched my computer and destroyed it. Only some of the files were recovered. But what I lost was of the most importance. I lost about 9 months worth of notes I had made while studying the bible intensely. About 20 whole pages worth of valuable information was destroyed. I really spent hours and hours each day understanding every passage of every chapter of many books of the bible, and writing down what I learnt, and it helped my faith so much.
But now its all gone. I know this sounds silly because it was my fault, but why would God allow that to happen? I know there are consequences for my actions, but God is in control. How could allowing so much valuable material to be destroyed to me or my faith any good?
This needs to be resolved before my faith can increase again. I just don't understand why this happened.