I pray that the Lord keep any and every woman on the face of this earth away from you at the moment - for both their protection and yours. You are going the wrong direction. Be angry, it’s okay, but don’t stay there. I know you can’t see it now but the advice given above by men and women, is real and balanced. Everybody in this thread has been gracious. As someone that has been married twice and in several relationships, I tell you this is all solid and godly counsel. You can’t see it now but I join with the others in this thread in praying for God’s intervention and best in your life.