Holy smokes akirarene; I just opened my lap top on cc and your message was staring me right in the face. I am so sorry that you have suffered life this way. I don't fully understand dyslexia. I mean, I've heard the definition, but I don't know it personally. I personally know 3, 4, and 5. After many years of therapy, I've learned to live life by using tools that helped me through ( and meds). Number 2 is as difficult as all the others put together. Even tho you might tend to keep to yourself, I'm wondering how strong your friends are. If there is anything you'd like for your message to do for you, please let your friends know. And I'm saying that because you've given this message here, there are people here who know a little bit about what it's like. That's why some people come to this site; because they have a need for someone to talk with.
I hope you are able to find what it is your looking for..., meaningful friends.
I will certain pray for you; that the things you need today will be met. Please don't forget to pray. In our darkest hour, prayer is the one thing that draws our Heavenly Father's attention.