I Want to die

[JesusChica1991]

Awwww. I know what you're going through. I have been suicidal myself and attempted twice. One of them was almost successful. I stopped trying to hurt myself because God eventually showed me there is so much to live for. There are even people in my life who care about me too much to see me put myself through that again. Back in 2009, there was a murder suicide in Atlanta. I lost my great uncle, great aunt, and a cousin that day. It allowed me to experience the perspectives of family members who have lost loved ones to suicide. The lie Satan wants us to believe is that our lives are not worth anything to God and that people will move on if this were to happen. I know this because I was convinced of it. Try looking at it from another perspective. Perhaps, give this one a try: If it wasn't for suffering, we wouldn't truly understand the meaning of joy and peace when our journeys on earth do come to an end here on earth. Things may not look good now. But, I promise you this: You are truly worth something to our Father in Heaven because He made you. He created you. Therefore, you have value. I often used to believe I was unattractive myself. That is another lie of the Devil. The Bible teaches us that women are the portrayal of beauty. A real man does not only look for women based on personal appearances. A real man looks at a woman for her heart's value and her soul. A real man is not superficial; for real beauty comes within the heart.

 

[brokenangel]

I'm not worth it why bother

 

[brokenangel]

I'm going to die anyways

 

[brokenangel]

BYE. I made my mind up

 

[lonmay]

Christy no!

Don't do anything

 

[jeno]

Listen to lonmay!!!!

 

[lonmay]

We love you. Your son loves you. Don't you do anything. Get to a hospital.

 

[triple-seven]

Lord, Jesus I pray for Christy, Lord, I pray that your grace and peace that passes all understanding would be with her right now. I pray against the spirit of death and suicide and I say you are broken off of her life in Jesus name! I speak and pray life over Christy in Jesus name. Purpose and love belong to her. And I say enemy you will steal from her no longer. Lord Jesus let her feel your presence. Show her eyes the hope that you have for her. life life! life! life! life! life! life! life! in Jesus name. Healing Lord...bring her healing in Jesus' name. Please God, hear the prayers of your people. (Christy there are plenty of men who would marry you! Don't believe the lies of the enemy. Send me a message on here and I'll give you my phone number. Just please don't hurt yourself. Life is still worth living...there's still hope!)

 

[sensible]

Christy my dear, i know u are hurt and lost, u feel no one loves u and that darkness is around u. but my dear Christy u are wrong. u really make me feel sad when u say u want to die. don't say things like that because u are making satan take autority on u and u are letting him controlling ur feelings. i don't know how u are feelings but i have compassion with u . if u die or if u go and kill urself u are comiting a big sin, u will go to hell and u will be in a worst situation than now. u will suffer more so don't say that. u say u have cancer, what is cancer? its just a sick , do u know who is God? he is a healer of any disease , he pass throught death and raise alive. God can heal u my dear just pray with Faith , believe with ur heart , he is there to help u , u go throught alot but its not a reason to wish to die. Some people are going trought worse than that. go on ur knees and ask god to help u , Don't give up , ur brothers and sisters here love u alot and are going to pray with u too , God will hear our prayers. God has a plan for u so don't say u want to die . he will give u the strenght to continue , He loves u , God doesn't want to punishe u , God is calling u to get closer to him , LOVE U SIS CONTINU HOLD ON GOD , keep courage. U are not worthless but u are Precious

 

[kim12345]

Lord God Please bring this beautiful angel Christy some loving trustworthy caring friends that will support, care and love up on her. Please heal her and reveal your amazing purpose on earth for her. Please God she needs a miracle. Please God Heal her and take away this guilt that she does not deserve. Lord she is the innocent victim but she keeps saying Im sorry Please God heal her heart, body and soul. Also give the young 16 yr old man charlesbro the same. He is our future generation. Lift Charlesbro Up give him a hope and a purpose. Bless these young beautiful kids IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME

I really need prayer. And friends.

 

[kim12345]

why can't you still marry and have kid?

I'm sorry To me a friend is someone who will be there no matter what and don't judge you. I always wanted to marry and have kids. Guess I dream to much.

 

[freed4ever]

Christy, One day you will die as will I, we did not ask to be brought into this world and we should not asked to be taken out, so a doctor says you have cancer but yet Christ raised the dead, healed all sorts of illness, do you believe that God chose you to come in to this world to die of cancer? I do not, you have life now and every power that Christ has given you, I could tell you of many passages of this but I think you need to know that greater in you then he of this world, the thief whom wants you to be robbed of your joy of the Goodness and power of God your Father, defeat the evil one claim the goodness of God and live like you never have reach out, God will lift you up and share love and life like you never have before God has not left you he is calling out to you fear not as you are so special let him heal you. In the name Of Jesus Christ I pray THE SPIRTIT OF GOD IS WITH YOU AND YOU HEAR THE VOICE OF TRUTH AND WALK WITH HIM STARTING RIGHT NOW THIS HOUR IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST I ASK THE FATHER, AMEN.

 

[JoshJoseph2]

Not sure if you're feeling suicidal or not, but if you are I advise you to talk to a friend, family member, doctor, pastor or call 911 if you are thinking of it. Also USA NATIONAL Suicide & Crisis Hotlines - When You Feel You Can't Go On... Call a Suicide Hotline. / SuicideHotlines.com - Direction for immediate crisis intervention for the gravely suicidal & treatment for major clinical suicidal depression. is a good link that connects you with some people that may help you out. I pray that you can overcome this cancer and the abuse you have taken in your life.
God bless.

 

[thespiritoftruth]

Hi,
All I can say is wait on the Lord He will definitely comfort you, and bring out the plans of hope he has made when the world began. For this I will just share you a mail I sent once. When I had waited for about 2 months to get an answer. We Love you.

Dear <Name Withheld>,

Hope this mail finds you in good spirits.How are things at your end. Just wanted to write a few things, to you about what I got while I was meditating.

I thank the Lord, for giving me one more day to worship him.

https://bible.org/seriespage/waiting...2-samuel-21-55

Many of the failures we see in the Bible are failures related to waiting. I am inclined to believe this began at the very beginning, with Adam and Eve. The more I consider the story of the fall, the more I lean toward an interpretation that sees the temptation and the sin as that of taking a shortcut to a good thing. The knowledge of good and evil is not, in and of itself, a bad thing. If Adam and Eve would become “like God” in knowing good and evil, then how can knowing good and evil be bad? Is being like God bad? Is this not what God is doing in us now, conforming us to the image of Christ (Romans 8:29)? Will we not be “like Him,” when we “see Him as He is” (1 John 3:2)? David is commended for “knowing good and evil” (2 Samuel 14:17). Solomon prays for wisdom to discern between “good and evil” (1 Kings 3:9). Christians, by their obedience to God's Word, “have their senses trained to discern good and evil” (Hebrews 5:14). I believe, therefore, that God wanted Adam and Eve to know good and evil, but not by the quick and easy way of stealing a piece of forbidden fruit. It was not wrong to know good and evil, but it was wrong to know it in a way God had forbidden. I believe God had a better, slower, way, but they chose the shortcut. They refused to wait on the Lord for such knowledge.
Abraham and Sarah had to wait for the promised son, and at least one of their failures was in the area of patience, of waiting on God to fulfill His promise. Is this not why Abram spoke of Eliezer of Damascus as his heir (Genesis 15:2)? Is this not why Abram gave in to Sarai's suggestion that they have the promised seed through Hagar, her handmaid (Genesis 16:1-2)?
The Israelites sinned in the making of the golden calf, as described in Exodus 32. Was their failure not a failure to wait 40 days for Moses to return from the top of Mt. Sinai? Was Saul's sin in 1 Samuel 13 not his failure to wait for Samuel to arrive? Were the disciples not constantly asking when the kingdom would come and trying to hurry up the plan? Did the 11 apostles and others not fail to wait when they went ahead to appoint Matthias as the replacement for Judas, when Jesus had instructed them to wait for “what the Father promised” (Acts 1:4)?
The church at Corinth had many problems. One of their problems was in the area of waiting. They could not wait for God to bring justice, and so they took one another to court (1 Corinthians 6). They could not wait for their brethren to arrive, so they went ahead with the meal, overindulging themselves with food and drink, and turning the Lord's Supper into a sham (1 Corinthians 11). They could not wait for the fulfillment of God's promises regarding full spirituality, and so they embraced teachers and teachings of triumphalism -- you can have it all now, not later.
No wonder our Lord devoted considerable time and attention to teaching His disciples how they should conduct themselves while they waited for His return:
40 “You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at an hour that you do not expect.” 41 Peter said, “Lord, are You addressing this parable to us, or to everyone else as well?” 42 And the Lord said, “Who then is the faithful and sensible steward, whom his master will put in charge of his servants, to give them their rations at the proper time? 43 “Blessed is that slave whom his master finds so doing when he comes. 44 “Truly I say to you that he will put him in charge of all his possessions. 45 “But if that slave says in his heart, 'My master will be a long time in coming,' and begins to beat the slaves, both men and women, and to eat and drink and get drunk; 46 the master of that slave will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he does not know, and will cut him in pieces, and assign him a place with the unbelievers. 47 “And that slave who knew his master's will and did not get ready or act in accord with his will, will receive many lashes, 48 but the one who did not know it, and committed deeds worthy of a flogging, will receive but few. From everyone who has been given much, much will be required; and to whom they entrusted much, of him they will ask all the more (Luke 12:40-48).
(4) Satan often attacks by trying to capitalize on divine delays. Satan tries to put the unbeliever's mind at ease by pointing to divine delays as proof God either does not know, or does not care, when we sin:
1 This is now, beloved, the second letter I am writing to you in which I am stirring up your sincere mind by way of reminder, 2 that you should remember the words spoken beforehand by the holy prophets and the commandment of the Lord and Savior spoken by your apostles. 3 Know this first of all, that in the last days mockers will come with their mocking, following after their own lusts, 4 and saying, “Where is the promise of His coming? For ever since the fathers fell asleep, all continues just as it was from the beginning of creation” (2 Peter 3:1-4).
Satan seeks to undermine the faith and obedience of God's children by deceiving us about God's goodness in divine delays. I believe he did this with Adam and Eve in the garden. I believe this is at the core of Satan's temptation of our Lord at the beginning of His earthly ministry. Satan was saying to our Lord, “Oh, sure. I know that you are God's King. But rather than deny yourself (by obeying God and being 40 days and nights without food), why not serve yourself? Why wait to eat? Why get to your kingdom through suffering? Why not worship me, and I will give you a kingdom now?” Isn't that the way Satan thinks and acts?
In times of waiting, Satan wants us to doubt that God's promises will ever be fulfilled. He seeks to get us to act independently of God to obtain these things on our own, rather than to wait for God to give them to us. He seeks to raise doubts about the goodness of God, as though He is withholding something good from us out of pettiness. He works at promoting distrust in God, and especially in His Word. He prompts us to disobey God and to follow our own judgment. He urges us to seize the moment, to use questionable means, to use others as means to our desired ends.
(5) Times of waiting on the Lord are designed to be those times when our faith is stretched and our intimacy with Him is enhanced. Have you ever noticed how many of the Psalms are written during times of waiting? The question, “How long. . .?” is found fairly frequently in the psalms, as is, “wait on the Lord.” David is often the author of such “waiting” psalms. Waiting on the Lord is good for us. It helps us to develop patience and endurance. It calls upon us to exercise faith in God's promises and to act on the basis of what God has said, rather than upon what we see. Waiting enhances our appetite for the good things God has in store for us. Waiting requires us to deny fleshly lusts and to set aside our desire for immediate gratification some easier way. Waiting is one of the ways that we “take up our cross and follow Him.”
(6) Waiting on the Lord is what sexual purity is all about. There is a lot of talk about “safe sex” today and very little about abstinence. This is because waiting for the pleasures of marital sex is taboo. Virginity is disdained as a curse, not a gift which one mate gives to the other. Waiting on God for the joys and pleasures of marital sex enhances the joy and pleasure of this gift, if and when God gives it. The point I wish to make here is that sexual purity is about waiting, and waiting is a good part of what the Christian life is about. Let us not look upon this matter as something God is cruelly withholding from us, but as a good gift, for which we are willing to wait upon the Lord so that we may enjoy it fully and without guilt.
(7) Some waiting is not pious. How often we are prone to wait when we should work and to work when we should wait. Waiting to do what we know to be right, what God has commanded us to do, is not pious; it is sin (James 4:17). Waiting to accept the offer of salvation and forgiveness of sins in Jesus Christ is a most dangerous thing (Hebrews 3:12-15). The waiting which pleases God is when He has made a promise, which we cannot bring about ourselves apart from unbelief and disobedience to His Word.
(8) Waiting is not necessarily a time of passivity. Have you ever watched what people do while they are waiting? Some do absolutely nothing. But I notice that some people (not just men) may crochet or do needle work while they wait. There are constructive things to do while one waits. David waited over 20 years to reign over all Israel, but that was a very busy time in his life. David did much more than merely flee for his life. David delivered the people of Keilah (1 Samuel 23:1-5), and he did good to the people of Judah (1 Samuel 30:26-31). One of the things we can do while we wait is to praise God and to pray, as David and others did in the psalms. While we may not be able to do what we would most like to do, we can do what God has given us to do, while we wait on the Lord to fulfill His promises and purposes.
(9) Waiting is a significant part of each of our lives. When I was young, I could hardly wait to get to my 16[SUP]th[/SUP] birthday so I could drive a car, legally. I could not wait until I grew up and had all the privileges and liberties of an adult. When I was engaged, I could not wait until the day of our wedding. Every one of us is waiting for a number of things at this very moment. Let me mention just a few.

• Our youth are waiting to grow up and to enjoy the rights, privileges and responsibilities of adulthood. Teen-age rebellion and premarital sex are attempted short-cuts that often turn out to be a short circuit.
• Some couples are waiting for children. Most every parent has to wait at least nine months for a child, and a number of parents wait much longer.
• Many wait for recognition and rewards in their work, while others take short-cuts to get ahead.
• Almost every Christian has some form of pain or suffering, for which they await deliverance.
• All Christians have unsaved loved ones, relatives and friends, for whose salvation they wait.
• We all find ourselves waiting for God to change someone near, and perhaps dear, to us.
• All of us wait for the coming of our Lord and His kingdom.
• Strangely enough, a number of saints wait for death. There are those who will not wait for God's time, and choose suicide as the method for relieving pain. Others cannot bear to watch loved ones suffer, and choose euthanasia. We all know of circumstances where we wish the Lord would “take them” or “us,” but God calls on us to wait.

(10) Finally, be assured that God always makes it worth the wait. If you want to eat in a hurry, you can drive through McDonald's and buy a “Happy Meal.” But if you want a gourmet meal, you know you will have to wait a while. That is because great meals don't happen quickly, or easily, no matter what the TV commercials tell you. I have never once seen or heard of anyone putting food into a microwave oven because they thought that it would be tastier than something which comes out of the oven, or a crock pot. We make use of the microwave oven because we want to eat, fast. We use the oven when we want to eat well. God's plans and promises are not of the microwave variety. God slow cooks His plans and His people, to bring out the very best in them. You can almost always plan on the fact that God will make you wait for what is best. He is never late, but He is also seldom quick. But of this fact I can assure you: When God's plan is for you to wait, He will make it all worth the wait.
Let us learn from David that waiting is a part of the normal Christian life. We will be tempted to short-cut this waiting, but this would be sin. Others are often willing to help us with such short-cuts. But let us resolve in our hearts to be like David, and to wait upon the Lord to fulfill His purposes and promises in His good time. Let us be assured that while we wait, God is working in us to prepare us for the good things that lie ahead. Let us not doubt that we shall see them. And let us devote ourselves to doing the good we know to do and that we are able to do, while we wait.

 

[wilc]

I'm in praying for you since you got to this website. Jesus is already with you for help you.!

BYE. I made my mind up

 

[Alanri2]

Try to take things one day at a time. Have / are you undergoing therapy for the abuse? It will take long term therapy to heal from this. How far along is the cancer? You are young, pray to God and follow the treatment plans set forth by your doctors. Trust in God that you will be healed mentally and physically. But allow God's angels to help you as they appear. Y

 

[Alanri2]

You are not alone, we are here to support you. One day at a time.


Heavenly Father I pray that you walk with your child and guide her this day. Open her heart to your grace and presence, allow her to feel your love. Send your angel servants to help her heal, both physically and mentally, from her afflictions. Grant her awareness of your presence within her, that she may know you shall be with her in her time of need and carry her during her struggle. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

 

[sehun]

Praying for you and your soul. You have a whole life ahead you and this is just a test from the Lord. You're stronger than this and you will succeed!! A lot of people care about you.

God bless you now and always.

 

[HeIsNowHere]

The answer for you is THE WORD of God. You must spend time in the Bible now. Please begin with John. Read carefully and slowly and keep a log of what you learned. Jesus was abused also. He was abused to death. He knows what you are going through. You are in the world and the world is an evil place but there is hope but it is in HIS WORD and in HIM. You must stop thinking about your self and focus on reading and listening to the Bible and keep a journal of what you learn and underline and circle those places that come out to you. After you read John read the Revelation and know the next life is our hope. There is a book to read, HEAVEN by Randy Alcorn. Get this book and read it. Only Jesus Christ can lift you up but He says "come to me all of you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest." He has that rest for you. You need the church as well. You must get plugged in a church. This is critical for you.