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MunkyBeans
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Im scared to let go of my control and allow God to take the reins.
My testimony.
When i was 9 my father was killed in a train accident, two weeks later my grandfather, my one and only grandfather (abulito or tito) had a heart attack and died two weeks later, i struggled for along time because of theirs deaths. they were the glue to my family, after they died everything fell apart especially my mother, who became a full blown alcoholic and was doing things that God does not want me to repeat. my sister Victoria who was 16 at the time followed my mothers path with little thought and at only 18!, all this time we are still believers of Christ but never doing anything about it, my sister Vannessa and i are still little girls being thrown into this world we were not prepared for. my sister Carmen was next in line she was 10 at the time of their deaths by the time she reached 17 she was a full blown coke head and smoker. to add to the pile all three were sleeping around, so what example did i have? i didn't follow right into their foot steps i kept my own for along time i started drinking at 14 and i made it all the way to 17 before i got talked into doing drugs for the first time. i was hooked on coke for about 6 months then one night my sister vannessa caught me and it was done God wanted me to see her heart broken, devastated her role model was getting messed up. i havent touched it since i went cold turkey and never looked back. long story short i knew by 18 things had to change God was telling me to get out of my moms house and take vannessa, so when i met my husband and we realized we could do this, we packed my bags and never looked back, i took van with me and she's still living with me to this day 5 years later. we both work out butts off and pay bills and we pray as a family as often as we can, but still we struggle with our past addictions and we still feel ourselves backsliding, but if God hadnt pushed me out and showed me the light i might be dead today. Thank you jesus for your everlast love and hope and forgiveness.
My testimony.
When i was 9 my father was killed in a train accident, two weeks later my grandfather, my one and only grandfather (abulito or tito) had a heart attack and died two weeks later, i struggled for along time because of theirs deaths. they were the glue to my family, after they died everything fell apart especially my mother, who became a full blown alcoholic and was doing things that God does not want me to repeat. my sister Victoria who was 16 at the time followed my mothers path with little thought and at only 18!, all this time we are still believers of Christ but never doing anything about it, my sister Vannessa and i are still little girls being thrown into this world we were not prepared for. my sister Carmen was next in line she was 10 at the time of their deaths by the time she reached 17 she was a full blown coke head and smoker. to add to the pile all three were sleeping around, so what example did i have? i didn't follow right into their foot steps i kept my own for along time i started drinking at 14 and i made it all the way to 17 before i got talked into doing drugs for the first time. i was hooked on coke for about 6 months then one night my sister vannessa caught me and it was done God wanted me to see her heart broken, devastated her role model was getting messed up. i havent touched it since i went cold turkey and never looked back. long story short i knew by 18 things had to change God was telling me to get out of my moms house and take vannessa, so when i met my husband and we realized we could do this, we packed my bags and never looked back, i took van with me and she's still living with me to this day 5 years later. we both work out butts off and pay bills and we pray as a family as often as we can, but still we struggle with our past addictions and we still feel ourselves backsliding, but if God hadnt pushed me out and showed me the light i might be dead today. Thank you jesus for your everlast love and hope and forgiveness.
