I can't believe you're struggling so much.. Of course, I will pray for you! Have you tried talking to your doctor about it? What if you have some psycological or neurological disorder? Because it is the only reason why such things can happen. I hope you'll get better soon! I also thought I had insomnia and even bought one of the best recliners for sleeping, but luckily it went away after I started taking melatonin. I don't know if it helps you, so you should consult your doctor first. I hope you'll get better soon. Please, keep us updated!