I havn't found the answer yet but this is pretty close of how I have felt many times. Scripture says, "he is near to them of a broken heart. That hurts and who do we go to but the Lord. It's the brokeness of the pain goes to the throne, and that open crevice or the broken piece is the way in of the HOly spirit to speak, and reveal truth, and peace. As the scripture says, break up the fallow ground. WE need to cultivate all the hard soil hardness of unforgiveness, and bitterness out, their like the stones, in the soil, weeds, and cultivate the good soil. There's a scripture that says, the word was sown on stony ground, and the birds came and picked it up. The word was sown on shallow ground, and it didn't take root because of the cares, pleasures, of life. The word was sown on good soil and the roots, went deep, and that person became rooted and grounded, and when the storms of life came, the wind shook but the roots were deep into the soil, just as the story of the man who built his house upon the sand, and the waves came, and away it went, but the man who built his house upon the rock, symbolizing Christ, it stood. For no foe shall withstand the power of the almighty.