Welcome to CC, Jon. I’m so sorry to hear what you're going through. My heart goes out to you. Situations like this are difficult. I just said a prayer for you, asking God to surround you with His perfect love, provide for all your needs, and give you the strength and help you need at this time. Have you ever considered talking with a counselor? A good counselor might be able to give you some solid guidance. I know it’s not easy right now, but stay strong. Sending prayers & wishing you well!