I guess I'm not a good one to post here, bc I dont have the experiences that you all have or the knowledge through investigation that brought me from defiance to faith. I guess I just believe the bible says Jesus died and rose from the grave and I know that's true. It's just an accepted fact, but without those firsthand encounters of meeting God or having some experience or manifestation, I guess I'll always be wondering what believing does in my life.
I guess I'm supposed to be doing something, but I really don't know what, so
I think im a bit jealous, and i dont know why God picks some ppl to meet with and others he leaves out, but it's not up to me to question. God has the right to do whatever he wants. I just figure he keeps giving chances, and I just hope I can do some good before long. He forgives over and over and Im glad of that because what ive seen of many christians is that they dont.
Do something they dont like, and they put you right out, no chance for anything, just goodbye, and it doesnt even have to be that bad, nothing like the unpardonable sin, sometimes its just a misunderstanding, but for some, that's enough, and its get lost. So my experience with God has been just waiting, but I still believe. Weakly, maybe, but it doesnt make sense to believe in nothing.
But my experience with christians has been mostly distant, and sometimes not very warm or friendly, so i guess that could make some people not believe.[/QUOTE.
God is using you my young friend, sorry to hear about your negative experiences..hang on to that truth God has shown you..be strong.