Hi Martee, I'm so sorry to hear your husband has passed. I'm crying with you...Hugs!!!
I have a 96 year old friend who's a widow. She journaled as she grieved and said it was the best thing she could have done. It was difficult, but it helped her through.
I don't know if journaling will help, but maybe talking with a friend or loved one will help. If you're able and you want to talk, you could either start a thread, or if you'd rather you can private message me.
I've just finished praying that God will bring you comfort. Wishing you well!!!