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ddavonne
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I am so ashamed and embarrassed but i dont no what else to do! I have completley lost control of my life! Ive lost pretty much everything my job,finishing my education, car, savings, health and now the realationship with the woman i was planning on marrying!!
I never thought i would be like this. I felt like my whole life was ahead of me and i had the things i was sure God had for me. Now its totally different. It started when i lost my very best male friend a few months ago and life just wasnt the same. It was so hard to get past for a long time but my girl friend help me through it and i thank God for that and her!
life kind of got back on track but not completley! i was still working and things were ok until a little over a month ago. i lost my job and now my relationship seems over, ( she only wants to be friends and is dating now) God knows i still love that woman with all my heart :,,(. i use to be a healthy muscuar 195pound athletic guy, now i 165, look sick and still loosing weight! I dont sleep and the strees and pain is killing me
Ive turned to drugs, alcohol, and porn to ease my pain and take my mind off things for awhile. it only helps for a while but thats why i go right back to it, to escape life :,,,(
I havent thought about killing myself but when i fall asleep, i sometimes think if i dont wake up, mabey it wouldnt be so bad!
I pray constantly, but i feel because of my sins God wont hear me! I need a miracle from God! So i ask and urge my brothers and sister pls pray for me!! I ask for restoration in my life and relationship. also that i may be delivered from my bad habits because they are killing me and surely thats not what God wants!
Thank you all so much God Bless
I never thought i would be like this. I felt like my whole life was ahead of me and i had the things i was sure God had for me. Now its totally different. It started when i lost my very best male friend a few months ago and life just wasnt the same. It was so hard to get past for a long time but my girl friend help me through it and i thank God for that and her!
life kind of got back on track but not completley! i was still working and things were ok until a little over a month ago. i lost my job and now my relationship seems over, ( she only wants to be friends and is dating now) God knows i still love that woman with all my heart :,,(. i use to be a healthy muscuar 195pound athletic guy, now i 165, look sick and still loosing weight! I dont sleep and the strees and pain is killing me
Ive turned to drugs, alcohol, and porn to ease my pain and take my mind off things for awhile. it only helps for a while but thats why i go right back to it, to escape life :,,,(
I havent thought about killing myself but when i fall asleep, i sometimes think if i dont wake up, mabey it wouldnt be so bad!
I pray constantly, but i feel because of my sins God wont hear me! I need a miracle from God! So i ask and urge my brothers and sister pls pray for me!! I ask for restoration in my life and relationship. also that i may be delivered from my bad habits because they are killing me and surely thats not what God wants!
Thank you all so much God Bless
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