I'm going to start off by saying I have a severe porn addiction, it started when I was twelve and it's followed me all the way up to 27. I've always identified as christian but I never actually did anything Christ like and I was living in unrepented sin. About two years ago God urged me to get rid of my porn collection. So I did and I've haven't purchased the stuff since. Unfortunately, the internet is still around. About a year ago (this was in April too like when I got rid of my porn collection) I was sick of it all and I asked the Lord to come into my life and stay permanently. The next day all that was on my mind was God it was like I had an addiction to him and it felt great. The addiction unfortunately didn't stay as strong as it was that week and its wavered since then. But I still love the Lord with all my heart. For about four months after my being born again I stayed away from porn and I thought I was cured. Unfortunately, the devil has a strong grip on me even still and I fell back into old habits. It's finally April again and I hope God does something amazing again in my life. If you read my post's you'll know that I suffer from Aspergers and an array of mental illnesses. My biggest challenge is Anxiety. Whether it be a trade bill or my health I can't seem to put all my trust in the Lord permanently. I sometimes feel like I can but then the (Sometimes Irrational) fear comes back. When I'm not worried about a trade bill or something in the government I worry about my health and when I'm not worried about that I'm worried about my past. But sometimes there will be a day or two with no fear's and it feel's pretty darn good. But it always comes back. Like I said I'm hoping something changes again this April and I can feel closer to the Lord. Thank you for taking the time to read this.